Hi there , I m lost here , just googled help for a new step mom , and here I am , Can some one help me where to go ??? I promise I get more interesting once I know what I am doing

I hate it when everything thing i do is wrong, or a big deal. I can't sleep so i get out of bed and go to the living room and get on here, not ten mins later, my husband come out have a fit cuz i got up. everytime i saw something he says something diff, like he's saying, no you cant ever be right. everytime i do something, he has a fit, i have locked my self in my room for a week just so i didn't have to be arounf him or my step kids, witch also meens i'v locked my self away from my kids. i just fel like i want to give up, i don't want to go on anymore.

As a teacher, I see a lot of strange family dynamics at Parent Conferences.

Two that had me smiling tonight:

1. One bio-mom only sees her daughter 3 weekends a month. She made an appointment 2 months ago to meet with me for Conferences tonight. The child lives with her bio-father and step-mother, who did not make plans to attend. Her bio-mom drove over an hour to meet me with me tonight. She had nothing to say but praise for the girl's father and step-mom.

Loca Grande is bipolar... Genetically, i know there's a good chance at leas one of the three skids could have it too... I wonder if it's Princess?

She sent a sugary sweet text this afternoon about how she misses us and hoped we were having a fun evening since it's such a beautiful day. This after how nasty she was to me on Sunday?

I texted back that I had Parent Conference meetings all night. She later texted for me to have fun and relax when I got home.

Lazy Boye spent his weekend with Loca Grande. No school Monday. Came home bragging about cruising around in Loca Grande's new Mustang convertible...

!!!!!!! She doesn't have money to pay for PITA's braces, but she gets a new car???? A convertible, no less!

PITA was in the kitchen and heard this. Amazingly, his dad nor I scolded him when he said, "That bitch. Can't help get me a car, or pay for my braces, but she goes off and does a stupid thing like that?! She is NOT my mother..." and stormed out of the room.

YSS17 has been throwing up for 2 days now. He went to school yesterday and wasn't well. After school he threw up and couldn't get his heair cut. Then he threw up at school and came back to our place.

DH was OK with it. I was too. This is DHs days to have him here.

BUT ... DH told him no internet. Well guess what? I signed onto Facebook and noted YSS had posted a 'like' thingy 8 hrs beforehand. This would have been about 12 noon.

Growing up in a household of alcoholics, the holidays have always been a very traumatic time for me. I feel guilty that I don't have the same love and excitement about them that DH does and he can't understand why I don't. He tried so hard last year to make it better for me, but it's just not in me. I don't know how I am going to handle this year. In the past I have spent the holiday season in counseling and tried to avoid family events. Now with a DH and SD7 its nearly impossible to stay away from it. DH listens to me when I talk about it but he thinks he can fix it and make it better.

This is my Christmas with my biological boys (19 and 16). My DH and I have only been married since May 2010. We live with my skids (SS2, SD16). My boys live with their dad.

My DH ALWAYS spends Christmas with his family, two hours from where we live. So this Christmas, he wants my boys and I to spend Christmas with his family. My younger son, has been around the big family once; my older son has never been around any of the family.

I am new to this site and new to "blogging", but I feel I need some advise. I am recently married and inherited 3 stepchildren, all of which my husband has sole custody. This is my first marriage and being in my mid-thirties with no bio children of my own I am starting to feel like the odd man out. I knew going into this relationship that my husband had his tubes tied and in the very beginning I was fine with it. Now I am starting to feel different, like I am the "third wheel" and I hate it when strangers ask me, "are these your kids", because the kids are quick to answer "no".

I am at work and need to decompress.
DH has been snotty since BM sent him the "I Miss You" text.
I was angry and hurt that she can affect him like this.