Trying not to stab myself!!
My anxiety is through the roof. I am drinking shots of vodka just to function and trying to stay out of the house as much as I can. OSS has brought his birds over and they make a lot of noise. I told DH that next time he doesn't bring them that it's not our problem he has birds and that BM can take care of them. They not only woke me up but they have been screeching all freaking morning long when I am trying to work. I shouldn't have to drive to my family's house to work just because of these birds!
So OSS will not be bringing these birds back to our house. MIL is also driving me insane. Every boundary I have tried to set has been broken so at this point I really don't know what else to do should I just disengage? DH told her not to put raw chicken in our fridge without a ziploc bag so she argued with him and said that she washed it DH just told her to stop arguing and just put the chicken in the ziploc bag so she did.
So I get up yesterday morning and what do I find a pack of chicken opened not in a ziploc bag. THen she rearranged my kitchen again after she was told not to. I have OCD and it affects my life a lot. I do rituals every day had helps me get through the day and I am unable to do them because of MIL.
I told DH that is really is affecting my mental health and he tells me that she will gone in a week. I told him well it's our house and she is a guest so fix it. I expect this to happen but when I can't do my rituals it really disrupts my life and apparently these individuals do not understand that. I really don't know what else to do that this point it really is not fair that my mental health is being affected like this where I am supposed to feel secure and safe. I also don't think it's fair that I have to leave my own house just to get some piece and quiet and not have anxiety.
MIL's is also very arrogant I think I mean at least she didn't throw anything however, she did tell me that I need to throw away some of my pans. I just looked at her and told that yeah that's not happening. I believe in other things besides god like nature and balance. I also burn a lot of herbs. Apparently I am some kind of devil worshiper because I believe in other things besides god according to MIL.
She also told me that she and teach me how to talk to men and be sexy I mean WHAT THE ****!!! The list goes on! It is all utterly ridiculous and I want to stab myself having to deal with all of this. If anyone has any suggestions to deal with this idiotic crap without me having to leave my house all the time please by all means enlighten me. Vent over for now.