Grasping at straws...
This past weekend was my first weekend without YDS. It was STBexH's weekend to have him. STBexH was all fine and dandy when he had weekend after weekend kid free....but then it was my turn. When he picked YDS up he wanted to "talk" and then proceeded to cry and tell me how awful things are and how he misses me and he is so sorry and am I sure that I want a dissolution still. To which I said yes. Then he texted me again telling me he talked to his friend and he knows he has a mental illness and needs help and he is willing now to get that help so since he is willing to do that now would I try again. Still got a no with that. Then after trying to manipulate another chance b/c of his self diagnosed bi-polar syndrome didn't work he got angry. Like hateful and mean and went off on me. I just didn't respond for the most part. Which of couse made him even more angry.
At pick up on Sunday he went off on me in front of YDS and flipped me off and told me to get the dissolution paperwork done asap b/c he didn't want anything to do with me and sent a bunch of hateful messages which I also just ignored. Then he apologized on Mon for his behavior and is still begging for another try. How many freaking ways do I have to say no!?! Ugh!
This is so hard. I feel a bit sad today. Not because I want him back but because of the marriage I thought I would have and how it ended up like this instead