Am i wrong to feel these feelings???
OK here I go.
Last night my partner of two years walked out due to angry ongoing arguments that go round and round in circles.
He, my partner has a BD that is 8, i have none. I love her, she excepts me and is loving towards me but for some reason i cant help but feel jealous towards her. What is wrong with me, how stupid are these feeling that i have because she is a child and I'm treating it like she is the other woman. I feel very guilty and try to explain this to my partner, he understands but pulls away because he doesnt like conflict. Then their is the ex wife. She hates me but not him and i find that very hard. I know that she doesn't have to be my friend but it would be nice if she could see how good to her daughter i have been and except me. This is just the start of our problems but the mix of all these feelings and a whole load more leaves me feeling like i need constant reassurance that he loves me and that I'm important to him. Now i become needy.I start to go over the top with the step-mum thing. I try to be the best that i can, I'm the one that dose the homework I'm the one that will pick her up from school and I'm the one doing all the MUM things when she is with us. I love doing it but now i feel like I'm taken for granted. He says he appreciates me but they are only words. wouldn't a little understanding towards my other issues show me more. I start to become insecure that he only wants me for the step-mum roll and he pulls away even more. This makes me explain my feelings more, he shuts off and now we are were we are. i need some help with this... are these normal feelings? am i wrong to try to express them and except understanding or am i just looking for love in a place i am not equipped to handle. I would also love to get some feed back from a BD that is in the same position as my partner is because i would like to hear the flip side to my feelings. Thanks