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I am going to rehab tonight

Anne Boleyn's picture

I'm a mess. Asked FDH to take over and help me. Leaving soon.

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BSgoinon's picture

Rehab? I know I haven't been around much, but did I miss something?

Either way I wish you the best. Please check in and let us know how you are

Lilly Grace's picture

No details need Anne... I'm proud of you for reaching out for help. Sending positive energy and healing thoughts your way! Look forward to your return.

Shaman29's picture

I'm sorry it's come to this for you. Take care and check back in with us so we know how you're doing.

Anne Boleyn's picture

You didn't miss anything. I never talked about it. Drinking has gotten out of control under all this stress.

The place where I was headed sounds like a homeless shelter. Looking for a new place now.

Thanks for the love and support, ladies. I will let you know what happens.

BSgoinon's picture

I will be sending positive thoughts your way. We all have our vices.

Be strong and take care of yourself.

Lalena75's picture

You have to do what you have to do, saying something, reaching out is the first step. Be strong.

Anne Boleyn's picture

I am about to lose my mind and jump out of my skin. I thought FDH found a place but it seems sketchy. So he's now SLOWLY looking for a new one on his iPad. I want to put my head through a wall.

In funnier news, I just talked my my 22 year old son who is quite the comedian. He was so loving and supportive. At one point he said "If I was you I'd go in there with 47 margaritas in me shouting 'where my party people at?'" God, I love him. He then asked me if you can show up there drunk. I said "I guess they pretty much expect it". Then I opened myself a nice cold beer.

Anne Boleyn's picture

I really can't blame him at all. I've had this as an underlying issue for a long time. The recent stress really brought it to surface. And he's been really supportive in trying to get us both healthier.

I've asked him to make a ton of changes. And he's made many and really is working to improve things for us. Not to my liking all the time but he's trying. And I finally realized that I can't ask him to improve without fixing my own issues. So here I am.

Anne Boleyn's picture

Thank you. And thank you for all of your support and encouragement on here. You have made a world of difference.

I truly believe that this site has helped me to get to this point. I came here to bitch about SD12 and FDH and now I am heading off to fix my own shit.

ctnmom's picture

Anne, as you may know from my previous posts, I am an alcoholic, my prayers are with you. I can tell you this: when you are around other alcoholics such as in rehab, AA or group, you will feel set free, being around other people with the specific disease of alcoholism. Thank God you have reached out for help_ I didn't until i had an expensive and humiliating DUI under my belt. I am praying praying praying for you.

Anne Boleyn's picture

Thank you. I didn't know. I really appreciate the encouragement.

I've only told a couple of people about this outside of this site. And they are all drinking folks and even they have been incredibly supportive. I am looking forward to my new life where I don't spend 50% exhausted and hungover.

Anne Boleyn's picture

BTW- I love how all the ads on this site are now for detox centers suddenly. It's amazing how they change based on internet usage.

Starla's picture

Funny how that works!

Best of luck to you. Look forward to hearing from you when you get back and be strong. (((HUGS)))

amackeral's picture

good for you for taking care of yourself and admitting you need outside help, that's the hardest part. good luck with everything, best wishes!

Yosemite's picture

I am soooooo proud of you!!!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Anne Boleyn's picture

OMG. This is taking FOREVER! He's on the phone with yet another place. We're still trying to get me in tonight.

In related news, I told him how sorry I was for everything I've said/done recently when messed up. He appreciated that. I've been a horror in the last few weeks. He then announced that he loves having sex with me but doesn't like to when I am messed up. I said "Great, add that to the list of shit I feel bad about"

Hopefully this place is it.

Starla's picture

Don't beat yourself up, you are doing the right thing and this is a huge step forward for you.

Anne Boleyn's picture

Thank you. And I don't know why he felt the need to say that. Felt like salt in the wound. But I guess I needed to hear it in my time of open honesty.

Starla's picture

I would guess that he may have been feeling frustrated and helpless maybe even scared for you. Like a vent of relief which shows he cares. It can hurt hearing it for sure but give him the benefit of doubt and just take things one step at a time.

hereiam's picture

Good luck, Anne.

I often think how wonderful it would be if alcohol was not so bad for our bodies, 'cuz it sure makes the brain feel good whilst drinking it!