Lately my youngest SS has been acting so strange. It was always been the older one that never really "warmed" to me whereas the youngest loved me.

Now the oldest doesn't exactly "love me forever" but he has warmed up to me more. And the youngest barely will speak to me. He rolls his eyes when I talk to him. He has been saying things like "I don't want SM around" and telling his dad "secrets" (which are typically things about me. Doesn't want me around, etc). He is only 5!

all the people that love you, all the bitches that hate you, and all the others that are lucky enough to know you!! HAPPY 2011!

So here is a quick rant- it's new years eve, Hubby and I are stuck with SS 13 tonight. Were in the living room, watching tv, having drinks, fire in fireplace and SS13 won't leave room and keeps asking obvious questions about the show were watching- it's really killing the mood. We have a large house, full cable, a computer, and flat screen tvs in other rooms, tons of movies, Multiple game systems ( which we bought him 4 new games for Christmas ) and he wants to be here with us - how special.

She sends me a Facebook memo this afternoon that she DOES have cancer, but doens't want the kids to know yet until she has more information about her treatment... What, so this is like the 6th time? And this summer when she thought she had cancer, she had them all riled up before a biopsy was even done, and now she she says she does have cancer, but she doesn't want the kids to know?

I swear, if she wasn't already under some psychiatric care, I would send her for some!

He told me that I shouldn't try to talk to SD15 and SD17 and let them come to me.

SD15 came down this morning and complained her feet hurt. Her Dad said it was her Uggs and I said I heard they cause plantar fascitis (sp?) and I think that could be it. I volunteered to show her some stretches. She said no. Okay, I dropped it.

A former boss told me never to lose my enthusiasm. I think explains my personality.

DH said I should not try to talk to them all of the time and let them come to me...

As with everything that bothers me time and time again...

My DH told me that there is a rule in the house. No friends in the house when neither of us are home...

SS17 does this all of the time. I say, I thought this was a rule. He says, well, she is a good responsible kid, it is okay. I say well, would you let SS15 have friends over, he says, "oh, no way, she is way too irresponsible."

As with everything that bothers me time and time again...

My DH told me that there is a rule in the house. No friends in the house when neither of us are home...

SS17 does this all of the time. I say, I thought this was a rule. He says, well, she is a good responsible kid, it is okay. I say well, would you let SS15 have friends over, he says, "oh, no way, she is way too irresponsible."

We were all huddled up in the closet. We had all 5 kids kids. My dh was at work so it was just me. The sirens went off (I live a block and a half from the sirens so it was LOUD!) It was scary, I have been trough them before but this time I was by myself with all the kids! ss13 texted him mom but no response from her. We are all safe nothing happened but can't say the same for the people about 10 miles form us.

Soon I will no longer have a stepson, and my fh will never see his child again. He made the decision and won't back off and has already talked to BM about it. He's giving up, and terminating his rights.. I honestly don't even know what to think or if we can make it through this.

So last night I had kind of a random conversation with my bf about his daughters. A little background: I have never met SD20 and SD23 and we have been together almost 1.5 years. Just for those of you who aren't aware of my situation. Anyway, my rule as of a few months ago is that I do not talk to him about SD's and what they are doing in their lives. This was decided by me mostly to protect myself from hearing what they say about me and so that I don't have a chance to judge them based on their shitty attitudes and immaturity.