My husband filed for divorce after 6 years with his main reason being that "I fight with him too much" and he thinks I will never stop.  Yes, we did fight, but I was trying to communicate with him about very serious issues.  

The problem is now my mind is bombarded with "what if it's all my fault" thoughts and it is throwing me into a deep depression and giving me awful anxiety.  I would very much appreciate some honest feedback.  These are the issues I would argue with him about...

So SS13 missed another three days of school this week due to illness. He supposedly threw up at school, so BM picked him up. He had to miss Thursday because the district rule is if you throw up, you can't come back the next day. Friday morning, guess what happened? He got sick again. Apparently spent the day on his PS5 until she made him check assignments. Lounging around, snacking, etc.

SS has acid reflux that causes him to spit up occasionally. He has medication to keep it under control.

DH, who is out of town, asked BM: Has he been taking his medication?

So I made a classic lasagna the other night which turned out perfect if I do say so myself.  If there is one thing I can't stand it is watery lasagna but I digress.  Chef is half Italian and half German and I am French Canadian so I don't really hanker for lasagna very often-- I mostly made it for him as I'm trying to get him to stop cooking and taking over the kitchen again.

So if you recall, I was stuck trying to decide between two dudes I was dating

Well everything was going so good with the dude I chose (thought we'd be riding off into the sunset in wedded bliss in 10 months) lol ...... until he wanted to go all the way with physical intimacy but hemmed and hawed about getting an std test 

Im getting one for myself for peace of mind but I was completely turned off by his reluctance to take his and my intimate health seriously 

Question nagging at me all morning is...

DH and I live comfortably. We're not wealthy but I don't worry about paying bills. Occasionally we take a nice trip. We're both retired, he has a decent retirement income and no savings. I have more retirement income and I've saved all my life. I don't consider my savings as joint money, but sometimes I tap into it for things we want or need. Travel, new roof, etc.

I actually have nervous tummy, dreading it. Last time she was here she asked if she could go to Crazy's Sunday night instead of Monday because it's "more fun there". Whatever, bye! I wanted to ask which part was the most fun, where Crazy yells at her for ruining her relationship, or where she complains to SD that she has SD at her house so she can't have alone time with her BF?

I can't post this on Reddit because I'm identifiable. I have been struggling with this for a long time, but especially over the past year. 

Hey StepTalk community,

I’m feeling really unsettled after an incident this weekend, and I’d love some perspective.

I want to scream. SS18 is one of the most idiotic kids I have ever met in my life. He is like a 12yr old in an 18yr old's body. After forcing a text go through Do Not Disturb a week or so ago at 12:30am on a weeknight asking DH how far down a condom should go on, (it didn't wake DH up, but it did wake me up so I saw it), he called DH last night in a panic.