step daughter in labor and i can't find the joy in this baby being born
my stepdaughter is in labor as i type this. i'm at work and glad to be here. don't know if you recall...she's 22, unwed, quit college with only 8 Weeks left in her senior year! she is living with her boyfriend's family and that's a mess in itself (the brother got his girlfriend pregnant too and is struggling with heroin abuse) while things were going good for us financially we co-signed student loans for her...now that the baby is being born...who knows how she is going to pay for anything! she is living off the system! while my hubby is unemployed for the last year from a 6-figure job as a product of this terrible economy! we are barely making ends meet on our own! not to mention these student loans that may now fall in our laps!
now the baby is gonna be here today and i just CANNOT find the joy in it! i know it's not the baby's fault and i would never resent the child but i'm just sick over the whole situation!!!! did i mention she refused to work since the day she got pregnant! she's lazy and self centered and doesn't care about how things affect her father and myself. she isn't even responsible enough to pay back a $450.00 loan i gave her last year but found enough money to get a new series of tattoo'd flowers down her leg!
there is a lot of tension between her and i. and it's mostly because she is a spoiled little brat and expects daddy to fix everything. i threw her a shower and never got a thank you! however, her boyfriends mother threw her a shower and she couldn't stop talking about it and it was plastered all over her facebook page. apparently, the shower i threw her must have sucked since not a thank you and no mention of it since. and, she hasn't even come to visit since then!
i'm totally disgusted! and i know hubby is trying to make the best of the situation but i feel totally isolated and alone! i don't feel supported by my husband. i feel hung out to dry.
and with the baby being born...i'm feeling it will only get worse!