wish they didn’t exist
So where do i even begin.... i know the way i feel might not be "okay" or "normal" but i can't stop myself from a feeling that's obviously there. I fell in love with my husband but not his 2 children (9 year old son, and 4 year old daughter). I think it's gotten to the point where i need to end the marriage because i can't stand his children at all and i wish they would disappear and never have to see us or talk to us ever again. Me and my husband have a 6 month old daughter together and i don't want his kids anywhere near our baby. His kids are definitely not raised with any common courtesy or respect and i don't have the patience to try and teach it to them when all they do is scream, fight, and disrespect me and my home because that's just how they're raised by their mom. I just don't want anything to do with it anymore. I tried for 1 1/2 years to be nice to them and try and be a good step mom when they would come on the weekends but i keep realizing that i will never love those children or want them around me. They made me feel like a prisoner in my own home. I don't see my husband in those kids at all and i wish he never had them since he always told me he had both of them by mistake and didn't try. Some part of me wishes he would just continue our family together and forget about his past and his other kids. Has anyone else ever felt like this? Because i don't know what to do and the only option seems to be ending the relationship.