I just feel so sad :(
Since all the drama that happened this weekend I can't help but feel so so sad about the whole situation. I am supposed to be starting my period soon also so maybe these heightend emotions are because of that too but have you ever felt like everyone on your SO's side is starting to dislike you because you're SO is setting boundaries? I feel like everyone thinks I'm just a bitch and that I'm the one making FDH set boundaries... and I guess in a sense I am. As things have progessed with our relationship I have let him know what I will and will not tolerate with his mom and BM and have let him know that if he cannot live with what my expectations are that he should move on, he's also done the same thing with things he won't tolerate. So now that he's trying to set these boundaries he really doesn't talk to his mom, his step dad, his sister and her husband (things with his dad/SM/2 younger sisters are great because they don't have boundary issues) because they are so prying. Things with BM have also gotten worse because he's not bowing down to her anymore. Maybe because I'm just feeling extra sensitive but I guess I feel like because I'm in his life it's making it harder for him to get along with his own family because he's trying to protect or life/privacy/home life with me. I sit with tears streaming down my face because I love this man so very much but at the same time I just feel like this is so hard and I want him to be able to get along with his family and also BM for the sake of his kid. I hate the feeling that everyone thinks I'm an asshole.
Have you ever felt this way? Am I stupid for letting what other people may think about me affect me? I'm just a mess right now. I wish I could have a normal relationship with my BF. I wish his mom could learn that children grow up and move on. I wish BM was a normal rational person. I wish FDH was responsible when he was younger instead of having kids with such a crazy person.