Big Blow Out
Goodness seems like such a rollercoaster. Things are good one second then all hell breaks lose. This morning everything was good similar to other mornings except my boyfriend didn't have work today so he was home. I did my usual hop in the shower wanted to do what I always do and lay in bed for a bit and watch something and chill in peace and then I would get up and start my day. Instead I hop in the shower he's laying in bed. The bathroom door is open as I like to walk around naked in my room while I look for clothes and moisturize etc, I had a towel kind of barely on and was moisturizing then SD10 bursts into the room and goes on our bed to snuggle and talk to her dad which I get and love that they are close but in my head I'm like ok if it was me and I saw that the person was naked and trying to get dressed I would say I'll come back once you're done and exit but I thought well her dad always tells her to leave the room when he is trying to get dressed maybe he will say something nope. He did not, but I didn't want to seem like a bitch or cause issues so I didn't say anything I just continued getting dressed. She then asks to play the xbox which is in our room to which her dad says yes so she gets the stuff and sits on our bed to get comfortable meanwhile I am still in a towel trying to get dressed just fyi this is my room. I finally spoke up and nicely asked "babe can you move the xbox into the big room" to which he says no, I said babe can you move it into the big room I want to chill and watch something he says no you go in the big room she's gonna play in here. I said no this is my room there are three tvs in the house she has one in her house own room and in the living room she can play on I want to lay down in my bed and watch tv in my room that I pay for. She goes to her room upset. He starts yelling at me about how I am selfish and just want attention and need to back off and I am jealous of his daughter and anytime she wants to do something I have a problem. I tell him that's not true that he just told her the same thing yesterday when he wanted to chill in his room and he said whatever that he ended up letting her play for ten minutes. I said ok I'm not saying she has to leave the room or can't play later Im just saying right now I want to chill in my bed and relax and watch something. He brings up the previous night how I got upset and asked him for support because I asked him to tell her she needs to help us with dishes. After I cooked dinner and served them both I asked if they could do me one favor to help me unload the clean dishes from the dishwasher which we pay her an allowance to do but it never gets done I always do it myself and put the dirty ones in he says yes then she grabs a popsicle and says knock on my door when you guys are ready to watch something. Which I thought was so disrespectful he says ok and I looked at him and said bro what the heck I need your support we pay her to do her laundry, keep her room clean and help load and unload the dishwasher. He says no you tell her I'm not telling her anything tell her yourself. Step up be step mom. She comes out I ask can you help us and she says sorry and starts helping. It's like no matter what I say or how I say it they take it the wrong way and I get scolded for having opinions or comments about anything. Me and my mom just took his daughter on a shopping spree for her room and bathroom two days ago my mom paid everything but I asked her to come and us get the stuff since we had done other areas of the house if we could do the same for my step daughter. It's like nothing I do is good enough. I'm called selfish or insecure or jealous or needy because I ask for things to be a certain way or things to get done. I hate this. Does anyone agree and think that I am being too much? That I am causing problems or acting jealous or needy or complaining too much? I just want to see if it's possible I am missing something and coming across that way or if I'm crazy.