I have not blogged here for a while.
I have a blogspot blog I also blog on--some friends know about it but not everyone...if you are interested in reading it--let me know..I love followers and opinions!
I had a recent 5-6 day break from the skids and my boyfriend..which I really needed.....to reflect on my life--my situation and just get away... I really encourage everyone that gets super overwhelmed to just take a breather--even for a few hours or day if possible. I felt like I had no where to go...and am blessed I have some family 5 hours from me...which is where I escaped to.
I am cringing at how the skids are going to act as they become teenagers.....they have plenty of attitude most of the time and I really was a shit as a teenager myself...so--Lord help me!
The skids are going to be here for a long weekend...the first weekend with them since I escaped. I have them until around 2pm tomorrow because of teacher/parent conferences at the school...Their BM will pick them up after....but she never does show up on time....good thing they live close..I will drop them off if she isn't going to come by at 2.
We have been really tight with money---and I think...THINKKKK I got my boyfriend to comprehend we AREN'T making ends meet when he says shit to me like "It was just $30" I finally said "OK--I can't pay the car note...or student loans...or our cellular bill....so "JUST $30 is fucking it up more!" UGH! The kids also think they can get whatever they want because their grandmother(s) spoil them. I never understood why some parents..and grandparents buy a kids love.....their BM's mother did that to BM and now her grand kids. So Sad....EVERYTIME I hear about her it is "She bought me this..or she is so cool..we go shopping every time we see her!"
Anyway--this is just an update blog..I am sure I will be locking myself in my room sometime this weekend.. Blog later!