So today is our anniversary, and on Sunday it's my birthday. We had a pretty good weekend planned. I have flowers being delivered to her job today, and tomorrow we were planning on hitting the nude beach with some friends, and then having a small cookout at our house. On Saturday, she had actually planned to surprise me for my birthday with a nude massage from herself and a female friend of ours.
On Monday night though, we received a call that that her favorite uncle passed away. I had no problem with our plans getting cancelled, because I liked her uncle too and he was one of the few people that always made me feel like I was a part of the family. His funeral will be this Saturday.
My wife drove down yesterday to visit her aunt to see how she's doing. One of her other cousins said that after the funeral on Saturday, they are going to have a birthday party for his wife and we are more than welcome to come. So my wife told me about that, and initially I said yes. Then I got to thinking about it, and I told her this morning that I wouldn't feel up to going. I know this sounds completely selfish, but I feel like why should I go celebrate somebody else's birthday that I don't even know when we cancelled all the plans for my birthday. My wife is a little bummed that I changed my mind about going, but I always feel like I get the short end of the stick when it comes to my birthday because we hardly ever do anything for it.
Am I being selfish for feeling this way? Part of me feels a little guilty for not wanting to go to her cousin's birthday party.