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BF took FSS3 to the store to get his glasses adjusted. When they came home FSS3 was crying and took off running for his room (which he does when he is mad, he pouts for while and then comes back). BF looked unhappy and started in with why FSS3 was upset. When they got done at the glasses place in the store FSS3 wanted a toy or something - he always thinks he needs something because BM always gets him something. Well FSS3 threw a fit in the store. BF went on and on about how BM always buys him stuff and it's a waste of money.

It is 6AM and another sleepless night. No particular problems in this old person's household. Just one of the many nights awake after having spent so many years working night shift. On these nights the thoughts flood my mind and I wonder "COMPARED TO THE REST OF THE WORLD, IS MY THINKING THAT DIFFERENT?" Ithought about the time step GS {18} was visiting and telling me he was gay. Said he had his 1st encounter at 14.

Sometimes there is so much stress it feels like the whole world is crashing down. I know that everyone here says to leave him but other then the kids and a few rude comments once in a blue moon he's amazing. Here's the thing he was with his ex for seven years. She messed him up so bad that it was normal to him to go on dates and talk dirty and say things like hey your getting fat. That's just how there relationship worked. He never cheated on her but it was a game to hit on girls and get attention.

Today Dr. Phil's show was on Paternity Fraud.

Very interesting.

My thoughts: Women who "knowingly" saddle a man with someone else's child are guilty of fraud, should be imprisoned for 3yrs for each year that they extort money from the victim dad, forced to pay full restitution to the man they extorted money from including penalties and interest, loose custody to the man who has acted as the child's father and be prevented from all future interface with the child except at the discretion of the defrauded father.

I finally told FDH how I felt about the way he parents FSS13. I told FDH the following things:

1. I hate it when FSS sits down in the middle of a conversation WE are having and asks what we're talking about. And FDH actually TELLS him what we're discussing. If I wanted FSS to be part of the conversation, I would ask him to join. Even if it's not a private conversation, I feel like it's rude to butt into the middle of a conversation.

I made it through a rough weekend of...

I work from home. With the exception of checking on my employees and going to the warehouse I am pretty much home all the time.

I love to clean and cook almost every night. I am a very " homey" type person. I would rather be at home decorating or reading or playing with my dogs than shopping at the mall and being on the go. I've always been that way.

Anyway, Friday i was pretty much home all day.....cleaned the pool, washed the cars, etc.....I went to my therapist at 4 pm

I got the nerve to tell DH that I was unhappy with his lack of parenting now that i have disengaged and put the ball in his court...(where it should have been all along)...has caused me much anxiety and concern for the safety of others in my home...He seemed to listen....and said that he would work harder as he sees my point....wow....

I'm so proud of DH!! We invited my SIL and BIL over for Easter. My SIL brought my MIL and then my SIL's son and family showed up too. So we had 4 children and 9 adults in our house all day yesterday and we had tons of fun. It was so, so nice to have family in the house and everyone got along and noone was trying to be the center of attention or talking trash to me or my DH. One of the SD was supposed to come but she wasn't feeling well so they did not come. I asked my DH later in the day what his other skids were doing for Easter and he said he hadn't even asked them what they had planned!