Anybody else delaying completing their family?
Posting this as most of my friends are single and childless so do not understand where I
Am coming from. As a lot if women here are in similar situations to myself, I would appreciate any advice. So a little background. I'm 29 and I've been with so for 3 1/2 years now living together for a lot of this time. So has two children by 2 BMs - first pregnancy happened when he was young however both pregnancies were unplanned. So is a great dad to child1 who we get every weekend (lots of issues here but not really relevant to this particular post) and does not see child2 as the relationship with bm was very toxic however he always pays his child support plus extra each month. Anyways I guess the situation with child2 affects our future quite a lot. There are many reasons why I probably shouldn't want a child with this man (please don't mention his past discretiona as they were only fleeting relationships certainly not lasting for over 3 years and living together) so this would not impact upon my decision. However the financial implications of this do in that my best friend once told me "you will always be like a single mother financially because all his money will go to these other two kids and you'll end up paying for everything for yours'. I also have experienced similar worries to other posters here as to my child not being as special as very spoiled ss. Anyway despite this lately all I think about is having a baby. I had initially met so living abroad with a very lavish and party lifestyle. However we moved back to our homeland so he could be with his son and life has become full of responsibilities and routines which is fine and is not the issue. However because of this it has made me want my own baby very badly. It kills me at times to think two other women have carried his baby and makes me very sad. However so does not want another baby. He says it is for the foreseeable future but I wonder if it is longer than that because he constantly makes remarks about his friends having babies now and how happy he is that ss is older. I guess my biological clock is ticking and I become resentful that I am sat in most Saturday nights with "family time" yet I am being deprived of the unconditional love of my own child like so has. It makes me jealous of so and ss and very resentful especially at weekends. Anybody experience anything similar or overcome such feelings? I feel so lost and sad