Hi everyone I’m exhausted
I wanted to start this by saying that I’m tired because I am. I have been married for 4 years which is really not very long and I have a 2 and 4 year old. I’m already at the point where I want out. My oldest has special needs and in itself is a handful. My marriage has been no picnic. Fights, money issues and indiscretions. Now this being a step parent forum I will say before any misunderstandings that I’m not blaming my stepchild for the failure of my marriage but all the adults around her for allowing the things that have occurred. I can honestly say that being in this type of family has caused 45 percent of my problems. BM over the years has been so demanding and abusive that I’m at a point where I don’t even want to look at her face. She would always play games and manipulate to get what she wanted. Throwing her kid on me constantly because she claimed she deserved her free time. She’s been doing it for years and all I hear from everybody is I knew what I was getting into. I’m tired of it. My stepdaughter has no respect for me or my children and this has been acceptable behavior for years. She has yelled at me given me dirty looks and has bosses my children around. Every time I disagree with something my husband does she jumps in and defends him telling me “I’d better get used it” and no one says anything they just allow it. She’s only 8. She walks through the door and doesn’t even look at me so we just pretend each other doesn’t exist. In fact I have been blamed for her behavior. I’m not patient enough, I’m not loving enough and I hate her. He has resented me for years for not being a good enough stepparent. It’s totally acceptable to yell in my sons face for accidents but god forbid I look at his daughter funny. 3 months ago I found my husband talking romantically with another woman and I asked him for a divorce. I told him I can’t do it anymore. I can’t be in a marriage with a man who treats me like the enemy, tries to cheat and has an ex wife and daughter that have no respect for me. He begged for weeks for a second chance. I told him I didn’t want to live this life anymore I don’t want lies in my marriage and I don’t want his daughter or ex. He still begged me to stay. 3 months later and Marriage counciling and I can honestly I say I still don’t want them. I don’t hate my stepdaughter and I would do never do anything to disrespect her but it’s hard to admit I don’t even want to look at her or her Mother anymore. I’m sorry but it’s the truth. I don’t even like my husband. I know a lot of people will tell me to leave and I know I should but my husband tells me he can’t live without me and will never let me go. Once again I know this isn’t my stepdaughters fault and I don’t hate a child but I’m just done and tired.