I almost went through a whole bottle of vodka
This is my first time to this site. I am so glad to read that there are others that feel like me. I am newly married to a wonderful man. He has 2 kids, ages 5 and 10 that are driving me crazy. I am a structured parent(I have a daughter age 12 and a 20 year old son in college). His exwife, lets them go wild; so when they come over our house (4 days one week, 2 days the next) I spend a lot of time disciplining. They both have ADHD (the mom refuses to acknowledge). All she does is stick them in front of the TV and let them play video games. They are unruly and unpleasant to be around. I knew that My husband was a package deal however knowing they are kids, I felt that they just needed discipline. I am finding it hard to love them and even worse, to don't want to deal with them.
This weekend took me over the top! One of my dogs was shaking and her eye was really red. I took her to the emergency vet, and the vet said that she had eye trauma?!! I said that we recently bought a platform bed and maybe she bumped into it trying to jump on the bed. The vet asked if we had any small kids in the home because this was done by a sharp object. I got home and the 5 year old admitted to taking a pen and poking her in the eye. The old son also said that he has repeatedly beat my other dog!! The emergency visit cost me $400. I ran out the house crying to avoid harming him.
I am not a bad person and I am not trying to allow my husband to be a father to his children but I refuse to let them control my house to the point that now I am feeling uncomfortable. I have kept my feelings quiet due to feeling guilty and embarassed. I feel good to get this off my chest....