I am just so freaking mentally exausted. I don't know how much more of this BS I can take with DH.

If any of you have been following my story you'll know that due to a lack of parenting and rasing a child to be a little nightmare SD(7) is completely out of control. It's gotten to the point where we are going to put up a wireless camera system in the house in order to protect ourselves from SD's lies and accusations. Both DH and I are actually afarid of her.

After finding out that SD had accused me of physically assauting her I took a couple of days off of work. Let's just say that I needed some time to recover from that one. I spent one of those days writing out a list of rules for BD(8), SS(5), and most of which applied to SD. Obviously some punishments for breaking certain rules are going to be different for SD. Both DH and I feel that it's not right hold SS and my BD up to the same standard with SD when it comes to things such as lying and bullying.

Yesterday my BD had her parent teacher conference. She is doing amazing in school. I mean scoring above average in everything. So as a reward DH and I decided that she would get to stay up later and watch a movie with us and have popcorn. As I was trying to eat my dinner next to her she was all over the place. After I had asked her to quit almost shoving pillows into my plate because she couldn't hold still DH told that she was going to have to move to the floor if she couldn't listen. So BD got up and removed herself to floor anyways even though she was not told to do so. About 10 minutes later she said that she didn't want to watch the movie anymore and removed herself to her room. Then came the crying.

DH and I stepped out into the garage where he started making comments about how if his kids were in their room crying I would be all over their ass. Which isn't true. I would have gone back and told them that if they can't be quiet that I would close the door to their bedroom. No body wants to hear a child screaming. Nobody. I had no idea that she was crying until we stepped out into the garage so it really didn't give me anytime to react to it. I went in and gave my BD the same talk that I would give his kids. Guess what she stopped.

So now DH is upset because he thinks that I favor my BD over his kids. I told him no, that's not true and brought up his sons freak out where he attacked the back of his door and ripped one his toys down and destroyed it. I had given him several warnings (the same one that I gave my BD) about closing the door. SD was in the room next to his trying to complete her reading for school. I explained to him that we don't have to do things like that with my BD because I started parenting her at a very young age. It never gets to that point with her.

Of course DH is just looking to start a fight and jumps my ass whenever he feels that there is some unjustice being done to his two little preciouses.

I am freaking sick of it. Last Sunday he let SD stand there right in front of him screaming, "Everything is great until you walk in the house!!!", and didn't do a damn thing. He freaking let the kid bully me, make me feel like and outcast, and disrespect me and didn't so sh!t about it. Last night he even tried to blame it on me stating that I pushed her to that point. Really DH???? So I pushed her to scream at me and you didn't correct the behavior and now it's my fault that she acted that way and you didn't parent??? Where's the effing logic there.

You know, I used to read posts on here where other women would talk about their DH's protecting their preciouses when they would do the most rude, cruel, and mean things to their Smoms and turn it around and blame the SM for everything, and I would think, thank god my DH isn't like that. Apparently I was wrong.

I haven't put my wedding ring back on since last Sunday. Not only did he allow SD to do that to me he also had this brilliant idea of effing me over and got into my purse and took my debit card to our joint account. He put it back, but the sheer idea that he thinks that way just doesn't sit right with me.