So in case you can't tell SO and I are reconciling. He has agreed to my terms so to speak and is actively working on understanding my boundary issue and the importance of it. 3 dozen roses, and my favorite candy bar (6 of them lol) kinda helped, that and his mom, and sisters agreed with me made him see what I was needing wasn't unreasonable. He was very apologetic, remorseful and even went to my kids and asked them if they would also accept his apology for hurting their mother and give him another chance. My dd was very happy we are working it out she says she really likes how good he treats me even with the fight we had. DS was non committal he's not a fan of SO's kids.
Now for my brain running overtime. I passed my license exam for Paramedic it's a huge goal for me something very important and education wise everything I do after this is just a bonus to expand my knowledge and where and what I can do with emergency medicine. It had always seemed it would be a "one of theses days." or "soon" but now it's real and I'm terrified and excited all at the same time. Yet I also have a medical situation that came on the heels of this exam that could put me out of service for a few months if it's bad, a couple weeks if it's not which is keeping me from pushing my resume out there since our area is desperate for medics. I don't want to get the job and then lose it because of surgery, and I don't want to be turned down for hire just because it might happen. I hate waiting to find out. and I'm really hating insomnia 3 days even my sleep meds aren't helping because the painkillers I'm needing right now make me spun up (yeah weird reaction I know)
Sorry for the babbling so much has been going on the last week I just feel all over the place. Yet super duper happy I'm a paramedic!