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I've taken on too much and the end can't come fast enough.

Lalena75's picture

I'm so stressed out, money is non-existant, bills are all behind, cs is not being paid, exfil has passed away leaving that whole side of the family now quarreling and exh is having a heck of a time keeping himself together let alone all the other craziness between exmil (his SM) and the aunts, uncles, and cousins. BM's lawyer is a moron and has set a court date for the "grounds hearing" but twice BM has been on the stand and given "grounds" of irreconcilable differences they've been separated 3-4 years now. Both have agreed to the divorce they just need to BOTH sign and it's done, can we get the F on with that part? Nooooo because her lawyers is senile.
Now I have my dd up and down as we get her depression sorted, top that with exh's gf playing PAS on my kids (I'm seriously going to hurt her) and dd working full time to have extra cash on vacation, dd is driving me nuts with one moment giddy, next psycho grump. SO's kids are fine same ol same ol annoying as usual but it's the age and upbringing and that's on SO to deal with not me.
He and ds however are pissing me off! I feel like he's bulling my kid, never a day goes by he isn't complaining how ds did this, didn't do this, didn't do that right enough, needs to get of the pc, get off the xbox, stop watching tv, go outside and play, not play with annoying neighbor kid, come home and redo all the things he didn't do good enough while SO plays his video game ALL day. Now I have standards for the chores, dishes are the one chore ds sucks at and ends up redoing frequently. But I'm starting to feel like he's saying ds did them wrong just so someone does them and he doesn't have to(dd and I aren't home).
Today I had enough of the two of them texting me to tattle on each other. SO is complaining about ds's "attitude because he's going to redo greasy dishes he left" (he redid those 2 nights ago and no one did dishes yesterday) and DS that SO is "telling me what chores to do when I already did two like I'm supposed to, whats the point of a chore list we can pick from if he's going to pick what he wants me to do like dishes again that I already redid" So I mass text the 2 of them the same message: "Both of you need to figure out how to get along, be respectful and work together as a family. This daily badgering and cock strutting is bull crap and I'm fed up! DS you're a child and will listen to your elders and do as your told. SO try and remember what it's like to be a 12 y/o boy and what it's like to be a step kid. You two work this out period dot"
I have 24 hours of internship left, a crap ton of school work, 8 hours of work (I'm job hunting this no hours thing is crap)and no support from anyone I'm ready to just scream for everyone to go the F away for 2 weeks till my vacation and some money comes in. I need a nap and a drink in whatever order.

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Shaman29's picture

Wow. You have my head spinning. All I can do is give you a cyber hug. (((Lalena75)))

chokinonlemons2u's picture

Bad time of it right now, huh? Just try to take deep breathes. I know breathes don't pay the bills. ((( hugs)))) but maybe a hot bath and some scented bath salts and a candle can help take a little of the stress awayfor an hour.

Lalena75's picture

I'd just be happy with a simple scratch off today. SO and I are fighting. I wish he'd disengage from my kids. He's trying too hard to be a parent when they already have two we may of sucked as husband and wife, and I wish exh had done the right things for his kids but he's always been a good parent not always a good dad but a good parent. My kids, and SO bickering is too much. the yelling in my house is more than in the last 3 years. I can't and won't tolerate being told to F off in front of my kids hell any kids.
My ds is pushing buttons today to and he's going to be missing camp and working for grandpa for it.
I handle my shit.