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Joyous New Year

h7's picture

I’ve had some challenges the past few months that upset me, but what surprised me most was my ability to rebound from them. No matter how down & depressed I feel, I can still find humor in the world & myself. I can still poke fun at my challenges, which makes them seem less… well… challenging. And the reason I noticed this is because when I was feeling my lowest I was still able to laugh at silly things. I was able to feel joy, even in the midst of my sadness.

There was a time in my early 20’s where I lost my joy & it’s been a lot of hard work to get it back. But while going through all that, I was able to learn to accept my bad feelings (my having feelings were a big inconvenience to my family as I grew up, so I ignored them) & deal with them. It’s been a lot of hard work to get my joy back, but I’ve got it now. I can be sad or angry, disappointed or whatever, but then turn around & tell a joke or make fun of the challenge in front of me & I feel better. I don’t feel overwhelmed or consumed by my bad feelings & I don’t feel like they can even bring me down.

For me, joy is like the glue that keeps my life together. Without it I lost hope & lost my freedom to be myself. I lost my self esteem & self value. I lost control over the things in my life, but the challenges I’ve been through lately have really pointed out to me that I have my joy back again. And now those challenges aren’t so rough… those feelings aren’t so overwhelming. I can be free to be myself & anyone who doesn’t like it better be prepared to be made fun of. My future is bright again & anything is possible. I can’t change the past, but oh well. Sh*t happens & life is better now anyway. People can’t affect me negatively as much anymore.

I’m really glad I came home, because the people I knew in Houston were so caught up in political correctness & occupied with what everyone else thought they had no sense of humor. They helped me recognize what was wrong with me & my situation so I could change it… they left me alone to deal with it emotionally, which is probably what I needed at the time… but they did not have the joy that I needed to be myself again. People at home at least have an abundance of joy & I’m so friggin grateful that I have it back again.

It is such a powerful positive force that seems to bring all the good things with it. So I hope 2008 is a year of joy for everyone here.

Happy New Year everyone.


klinder180's picture

...and looking forward to 2008. So far 2008 is looking like it will be a good year and I look forward to a nice quiet year where I can grow as a person and as a father to my daughter.

Hope everyone else has good things coming to them in 2008.