Why are some days so much worse than others
Honestly, my situation isn't bad. We only have SD7 on holidays and during summer break because BM moved her away. It sucks, but at the same time, it got BM far away from us..
But you know those days where you just drive yourself mad with thoughts of BM?! I think it is especially bad when you don't have children of your own. I want so badly to be a mom, so it's hurtful when the only somewhat child I have, I am not a mother too. So you have times where you just dwell on them and it and the whole situation.
It's enough to make a girl mad.
I don't know why it is worse on certain days. It is not as if I have a bad FH or have to deal with a bratty stepdaughter, it's the unspoken competition that you sometimes feel as a stepmom that I am having the hardest time trying to overcome.
I just want it to go away. I don't want to think about her, or her life. I just want to be in mine, I am not sure why I struggle.
Anyone else have these days?
Just trying to be honest.