Am i a horrible person?
I feel like a horrible person, i cant find a way to talk to anyone about this. if i talk to my friends i feel like they are agreeing because its the friendly thing to do. If i talk to my significant other he shuts down and it becomes an argument. I am 23 years old and i have been with my boyfriend for 4 years and i am 3 months pregnant . when we first met his son was great we had no issues and we got along great. However we ended up separating for acouple months and when we decided to try things out again his son was a whole different person. His son is 7 and i cant seem to get along with him anymore. He is VERY jealous when im around his dad. If im talking to him he will talk over me so i could stop talking to his dad. If we go out for dinner and my bf says he wants olive garden for example, his son will want it to but when i agree to it he will immediately say nevermind i want __ now. If i make dinner he will say how its nasty and his mom makes better food. We went to the zoo with my bfs family and he started crying because "his father doesnt love him anymore because he was holding my hand" but 2 seconds ago he told us he wanted to walk ahead of us to be with his cousin. I had to separate from my bf and walk with his sister ahead of them because his son didnt want me around. I finally decided to tell my bf how i felt and he said hes just a kid he doesnt know what hes saying. I cant stand this kid anymore. Whenever he comes over my whole mood changes. I just want to leave my home. I usually end up locking myself in the bedroom. My bf and i decided to get a 1 bed apmt. (California rent is insane) BEFORE we moved in i talked to him about where his son will sleep when he comes over (he has him every other weekend). He said he will be fine in the living room. Fast forward to the day it came for him to come over, now his son cant sleep in the living room, he feels bad.. i tell him he can get an inflatable matress and make it comfortable with blankets and pillows. But No, his son cant sleep on inflatable mattresses, thats "rude". so now here i am sleeping with a 7 year old on my bed, also he needs to be in the middle so he can have his back towards me and his dad wont touch me. I dont know if it was the way my family is but i am not comfortable sleeping with a child (that is not mine) when he is 7. he told me about how he WANTED to buy a small moveable couch that can turn into a bed and i said NO definitely not. We have NO space for this couch. Our living room is smaller then a master bedroom and we ALREADY have a huge couch in there. But ofcourse i come home from work on the weekend he has his son and i walk into my bedroom and he has the couch. I dont know what to do anymore. Everytime i try to talk to him about this he automatically gets defensive and says its because i dont like his son, and how im a heartless person. I feel horrible, at this point i dont know if i can ever like his son again, and it makes me feel terrible. Am i in the wrong?