Well, I am looking at my hands again, and my body is starting to quit on me again. I am getting another active flare up of dermatitis going on both hands again. It never quite completely cleared up, and just basically relapsed and started again. The hot climate here hasn't helped. It has been well into the 90's all week and will remain so indefinitely. I was finally able to get white cotton gloves ordered for my hands and they should be delivered today. It took me quite some time to locate them and get them ordered.

that my DH can't talk about any issues that deal with his EW for more than a minute. He seems to think that I am obsessed for even bringing something up. I don't think he understands how frustrating it is to be the SM and to have to deal with his past issues and the present ones, because the reality is that we have quite a few years left to deal with this. When a person is so opposite of you and lives to make your life a living torture (I am still not sure why we take the brunt of the hostility), it is hard to understand. Sometimes I just need to talk it out and he hates that.

So biomom does have a live in boyfriend, slash fiance, she acts though he is the great at almight SD. Even has the kids calling him dad... So I have been in the picture for 4-1/2 years him about the same time, and I have seen him maybe 5 times. He is never at the games, practices, anything. When ever we see biomom at something, you would think sd would be somewhere. He's never there. Why is that, yet she makes them call him dad. I was just wondering when and if they ever do get married (doubt that they will) does it get better or worse for us.....

Next week I'm leaving my husband & the boys & visiting with my parents for about a week. I think I'm dreading what will go on while I'm away, but I'm going with the whole ignorance is bliss thing. I'm just making sure that I give them 2 days notice on my return. Doesn't that sound nice?

I just remember the time when I was first introduced to my inlaws, I looked at my sisterinlaw's face when my husband introduced me to his family. She had this look in her face of disgust about the whole thing. Now that I think about that, I realize that she does have a close relationship w/biomom and the whole idea of me in the picture is just depressing for her I guess. I can't understand why she should just have told me that she is friends w/biomom when I was telling her all my problems. Instead of hiding the friendship behind my back. How would you feel if you were in my situation?

Today was more calming and I was able to get a couple of things taken care of for Father's Day. I got a couple of cards in the mail for my Dad and also bought one for my husband. I don't expect that he will hear from either of my SK. But I went ahead and decided to combine his Father's Day and Birthday gift (which is next month) and let him pick out a DVD/VHS recorder as he has been wanting a DVD recorder. Since there was only a difference of about $35, I figured why not just get him something a little nicer.

My daughter was so beautiful. She had a wonderful time at her junior prom. We had a before prom gathering for pictures with her date and his parents and my mother, my son and his girlfriend. I was a very proud mother and my daughter beamed with beauty. She was extremely appreciative (we had a whole day of hair appointments, nails and makeup).

It's so awful that when we went to our lawyer he said that unless who can prove she is having sex, doing drugs, or leaving the kids unattended you will never get them away. Why is it that the justice system plays the we can't take them away from the mother bit. I know that in a lot of cases the mothers are better fit, they do take care of the kids, and they are the # 1 thing and it shows. But then there are dads like those moms, who would move heaven and earth but can't b/c of the system.

Here's one for discussion, Going into your relationship with husband and then following through and getting married, did you ever think maybe not, maybe not to be a stepmom and to have to mess with biomom......
My friend who is a SM talks about that all the time. So does that mean that the love isn't enough to make you doubt or that the stress is really taking it's toll....

Has this happened to anyone else.... Whenever my husband is not around, and we are at a sporting event, you would think that she is my best friend. Last night she talked to me for 45 minutes about anything and everything.... So for the kids I put on the show, talk and smile and blah blah.... But if the hubby is with my I am the enemy. Why is that we as women, I don't just blame her but me to, b/c if he is around, I purposely don't speak to her. Does this happen to anyone else