Should I start therapy?
I have been in and out of therapy my entire life. I hated it as a child, however, it was mostly court ordered due to things that happened. Not things that I did, but things that happened to me. My problem here is that I find myself quickly losing patience, I don't feel like the same person I was prior to my marriage. I know that people change and that's a good thing, but I find that I don't like the person I'm becoming. I'm impatient with my kids, both step and bio. I'm anxious often and hate going to things and doing things with any of them because I'm always so uptight, which ALWAYS make everything so much worse for everyone. However, when I think about going to therapy, I think about the fact the closest people that insurance might help pay for are 45 minutes away minimum. I think about the time I would have to take off work and the fact I'm already taking tons of time off due to my 2 SK and my 2 bio's. I think about the fact that although I don't like who I am, I'm not THAT bad and that the theripist may just brush me off and basically think I'm ridiculous and being dramatic. So... do I search for therapy? Or do I just wait and see what happens?