Beginning to dislike Holidays... (vent)
With Easter coming up I can feel my stress levels rising.
I hate that we have to 'share' SD. I know some people on ST disagree, but for now SD3 loves being home and everyone here loves when she is home as well. Could it be because I have been involved in SD's life since she was still a little baby? Maybe... Idk. Sure we have 'bad days' but hell I have bad days with my bio's too.
I do understand that BM needs her time with SD too. I guess I'm just a selfish SM.
I hate that we have to give up holiday time with SD. Time that is really ment for kids. I don't like celebrating a holiday the day before. It takes the 'magic' out of the actual holiday. And when we have to celebrate the day before the actual holiday, the holiday day just seems like another day.
I love SD, and FDH, but I really hate that FDH had to have a baby with BM, then leave her 6 mo after SD was born. (BM cheated on FDH with his best friend... He caught her the day before Fathers day and left that night.) He had to have a paternity test to make sure SD was in fact his.
I do realize what I was walking into... To a degree. But does the schedule ever really get better? Especially if you have a bat sh*t crazy BM who is also as dumb as a rock? (Honestly some of the things I have read from BM to FDH are just completely der da der questions. Hardly ever involving SD, to which FDH doesn't reply.) One night she asked FDH a question, he wwasn't going to reply, it had nothing to do with SD, whom BM had that night. I told him to text her back to Google it... Her reply, 'Oh yeah, I totally forgot about Google. What's the website again?' Honestly? FDH and I laughed and laughed... Never did give her the web address though.... I wonder if she figured it out. Lol
End of vent. = )