Trying to stay patient
Hi everyone! Glad I found this website because I thought no one was feeling how I do. I'll keep this one short, but just feeling overwhelmed with being a stepmom. Sometimes I think that I should not have signed up for this. BM has a new schedule where she works in the day and a small night job. So, my 3 SC or SK (sorry, learning this abbreviation thing) stay with us during the school week. I have 2 SD, one 12 one turning 14 and a SS, 15. The SS is about the same size as me, just taller and has been taking my clothes to the point I started hiding my jeans and my nicer clothes. I hide my makeup too. Even after I told DH and BM, not much support or if they do discipline her she goes right back to it. BM, I feel is more lazier since the kids have been here more. I dont really have much breaks from them or things to look forward to anymore. Work is a distraction, but not a fun one, lol. Honestly, I dread them coming over because it's alot of responsibility on me. And sometimes, i just miss my house with just him and me or my alone time with no one here. All of my friends are either single or married and have kids only with the person they are with. So, loneliness all around. I still want DH and me to have children, but I left it in God's hands and sort of go with the flow at this point. Really hoping that something will change for the better.