It's going to take some time to implement, but I am planning it.

1. Naturally, I need a job. I have an interview coming up with a company that I really, really want to work for. So I am prepping to walk in there ready to knock their socks off in the interview. I have a friend who works for the same company, so I have an inside scoop on the types of questions they will ask. I am also "boning up" on the things that are important to the company so that I can speak intelligently about them. I've got this. This is my dream job, in my new field that I just graduated into. I am so excited. Prayers please.

2. I am working on a new budget. After I get a job and until I leave, I am willing to split all household expenses (utilities, mortgage, etc.) at 50%. I will also take on paying the consolidation loan my H and I took out after we got married. I will pay on that until it's paid off, considering that the majority of the debt was mine to begin with I feel that this is only fair. After I start working, I will still keep my small part/part-time job for extra income. This will only add to my savings.

3. I am going to pull my credit report and start making sure that it's "mortgage ready." Preferably, I want to exit into my own condo instead of an apartment. However, this will greatly depend on how much time I have in the long run. I have no debt in my name, but I need to pull my reports to make sure everything from my bankruptcy years ago has come off the way it should have. Gotta dust the reports off and spruce 'em up.

4. I am working on total disengagement. I keep repeating this mantra, "Indifference denotes an absence of feeling and/or interest." I think that as the days go by, I will get better at it. I just have to process the hurt so that my "indifference" is true indifference rather than smoldering anger.

5. I know that this is passive aggressive and slightly childish, but: When my H or the skids break something of mine or take something of mine without asking me, I am going to return the favor. Since I heard my H and SS LAUGHING about the fact that SS has no intention of replacing my soap dispenser (yes, LAUGHING) - I have targeted one of SS's prized hats to make it into the next trash pick-up. I know, it's immature of me, but really it will make me feel better. After I've done it, I will just keep telling myself that SS and I are "even" now. And I will let it go. Then, when I die and I have to stand before God for what I've done, well, I'll take my lumps then. I am absolutely DISGUSTED by the man my H is and DISGUSTED by the fact that he is willing to raise his child to treat people that way. WTF...

6. Implement and revise as needed.

Like i said, it will take time. It's not possible for me to immediately pick-up and walk away, nor is it necessary. There is no immediate physical danger. So I've got time on my side. In the meantime, it's just going to be super important that I manage my own emotions for the sake of my own mental and physical health. I absolutely have to work on total disengagement.

"Indifference denotes an absence of feeling and/or interest."