Some Good News
Yestesday, I had an MRI and meeting with my oncologist. Many of you know I've had 3 cancer scares in the last 2 years, including 2 biopsies which were thankfully all negative. Every time I go in for a check, they find something.
Well, this time I had my MRI and then a few hours laster a meeting with my oncologist and got the ALL CLEAR!!! No suspicious spots, no biopsy or surgery needed! This is the first all clear I've had in 2 years, such a releif!
That being said, of course we had to continue talking about the future. She said we are going to hold off on checking for ovarian cancer until I'm 35. She said there really isn't a point in testing now because the test doesn't work anyway. By the time you have symptoms of ovarian cancer you're very late stage. She said I need to REALLY start thinking about when I'm going to remove my ovaries, and again asked me my timeline on having kids.
Of course, I embarassingly started crying in her office. I explained there's no change from last year, DH still doesn't have a job and we pay $3,500 a month in child support so there isn't money for a baby. She tried to make me feel better and said I still have some time. However, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer at 36, and between that, both grandmothers being survivors, and that I'm BRCA-II positive, I need to do whatever I can to move this along and start thinking about a double mastectomy and hysterectomy.
I will be very shortly up for another promotion, this one a BIG jump up 2 levels. In addition, I will go from underwriter to manager, with 7-10 people under me across 4 offices. Increased stress I don't need, but increased money I do. I may just have to suck it up and have a baby while I still have time and once we have the money from my promotion. DH and I talk about it a lot and I WILL NOT have my extra money I'm making going to child support. It will be to care for the baby and myself and take care of OUR household expenses.
DH has been working part time at a temp gig but it ends July 25th. He is basically biking around the city with a backpack mounted camera for a tour company and videoing the streets. It pays $35/hour, which is great. So far he's made about $2,000 doing that. Unfortunately it's coming to an end. He was just rejected for a job at JP Morgan. He was rejected from Whole Foods, from ACME (local grocery store), the Apple Store.....so frustrating. He got a one day gig as a headshot photographer at a podcast conference next week, so he's hoping he can network there for some additional work. He's trolling indeed, craigslist, etc for anything he can do to make $ towards the child support.
We saw Mama Mia 2 at the theater last night and the girl finds out she's pregnant and I just start crying and crying in the theater. Something's got to give.