Well guys, looks like another loss. Numbers aren't going up as they should still. Have another ultrasound to confirm tomorrow am. Then it's the wait game to see if my body starts miscarriage on it's own-if not will start pills Wed evening next week. We have a hunt test this weekend w/our dog- so hoping nothing starts before hand-if it does it does- We can always ask somebody else to run him for us.

We have still our new pup coming to join us in April. Sucks and don't know what God's intentions with another miscarriage are about but that's it- closing shop. Hopefully a hysterectomy for me or snip for DH. Just disappointed and sad-but I already knew in my heart it wasn't going well. At least I didn't get to see a good strong heartbeat to lose him later like 3 years ago. This is much earlier in the game. Still a long process. I'm uncomfortable and in pain-bloating and sore breasts from the progesterone supplements they had me on.

It's just cruel-life is cruel. I've lost all faith in God and his 'goodness' to be honest.