Adjusting to single living again...
It's been a few months now since I walked out of hell, lol. At first I thought I might break and go back but, it turns out that I'm a lot stronger than I ever imagined. I won't lie, it's been an adjustment for me.
I love to cook and re-learning how to shop and cook for one has been one of the most difficult things for me. I eat ALOT of leftovers now, . Then I realize that I'm actually saving money so I feel better about it, lol.
Sleeping alone was an easy fix... I adopted a pup from a local rescue. He doesn't steal the blankets or snore, so that's a plus in my book . We go to the local obedience club and have met many wonderful people. Even a few single (and yes, CHILDLESS) men. No dates for me though. Just not ready for that right now. Here's something ironic for you, I ran into my XH and one of the SK's while I was walking my new bestie. As soon as they saw us, they immediately tried to pet my friend. They didn't get 3 feet from us, when he let out this big boy bark as if to say... STAY AWAY! It worked, they turned and walked away without even a simple hello. XH looked a bit on the haggardly side. I almost felt sorry for him... almost.
Anyway, that dog must have known what kind of people they are b/c he usually loves everyone. They say, animals can sense evil.... it must be true, lol. }:) XH called 2 days later and left me a VM (I don't take his calls) telling me that it was nice to see me doing well and that single life seems to agree with me. He said he was glad I had a good protector. He even asked if we might ever get past all of the ugliness and maybe have a cup of coffee one day soon. I deleted and never called him back. No going backwards for me.
I'm still planning on moving back to my hometown after the first of the year but, for now, I am doing better. I get stronger with each new day and in those few fleeting moments of weakness, I just come here and read all of the happenings and feel grateful that I am no longer a 'stepmonster'. I owe many of you a huge thanks. For the wonderful words of wisdom you took time to share with me, and for the continued sharing of your stories.... stories that remind me of how lucky I truly am.
Best wishes to all!