I know this probably doesn't sound like much but to me, it's progress. I drove into a nearby town about 25 miles away and did some shopping to purchase some toys for the puppy, sewing supplies, carpet runners, and men's cologne for my husband. It was a nice, quiet drive back and forth. I stopped after my shopping and grabbed a sandwich at Arby's. An older gentleman came up to me and pleasantly engaged me in conversation about the hot weather. I relaxed while eating my sandwich and drove back home with my packages and took the dogs back out.

Well, I seem to be off to a good start this morning. It rained pretty heavily last night again. In fact, we've had showers for the last 3 days now. I am actually moving along a little earlier than usual which is unusual for me, of late. I had the dogs outside and my husband has been throwing the dead frogs out of the pool skimmers but apparently missed, and I found one had apparently hit our trailer parked on the secondary access road. Yuck!

I just had to get this out of my system... This is not about a stepparent issue but its about friendship. I have a friend, I grew up with her since 3rd grade. She got married and had 2 children (a 4yr and a 1yr old girls). I've noticed that she's only calling me when she needs a favor. I feel like she is just using me. She never calls to say hello or plan a get together but only calls me when she needs my help. How do I tell her that this bothers me instead of me screening my phone calls and not call her back.

This evening I am going to think about what I would wish for in the future. What I would like my life to be on June 1, 2006. That's the first day that we don't have any obligatory payment for support. So, I am going to try and calmly think how our life would change without that obligation and noose around our neck.

Have you ever been so bothered by things you can't control, and knowing that, even in your subconscious when you sleep, dream of the problems? It's like I just can't get away from it. I can't talk to my husband about it....he won't discuss SD, especially. So, when I sleep, it's not restful, and I wake up with a bad migraine. I don't feel like I am accomplishing a whole lot these days--basic housework...it's too hot outside to get anything else done--nearly 100 every day. And my evenings and nights are not restful or relaxed at all.

Well, after making the statement that she was never going to speak to her father again, my boyfriend's stepdaughter, without advanced notice, showed up on Friday night because her mother and her had yet another blow out and we have had her at the house ever since.

Let's see...looks like SD is trying to make me think I am losing my mind...has completed deleted the entire entry from wwwmyspace.com and someone has commented on her xanga comments. She's simply too much. But I'm glad to see that the entry on myspace.com is gone. Maybe biomom said something to her...who knows? But I'm glad that biomom had the guts to ask. At least, she took it seriously. It's a start. I can only hope that's how it came about.

This is taken from a blog entry. (Well, "to put it simple, I'm hurt".) Yea, me, too. Then, there are all the nouns, adjectives, and adverbs, describing the word, "hurt". How about we describe the word carnage, and what was left of my husband and I after our lives were ruined? Many of you know what carnage is. I haven't done anything yet, but this SD diva drama queen , is going on and on, how hurt she is. And I'm thinking, "talk to the hand", cause no one here cares. Your Dad isn't MIA. Get a life. He doesn't care. Your behavior has alienated people who loved you.

My ex-wife is furious because I let the kids stay with my mother, instead of my father when I went on my honeymoon. Now based on that one incident, she is threatening me with contept of court, and wants to go back to mediation and force me to pay her child support. We have the kids 50% of the time. I currently do not pay child support because she has a spending problem.

Well last night my SS17 came into the livingroom to give me a big hug. I could tell he was upset but not ready to talk. I made us tea & then he told us that his GF14 has broken up with him. Earlier in the day he went over to his friends place to talk about the break up, & watch World Cup. While they were talking his friend told him that he's been an ass to me. I guess he had to hear it from someone outside the family.