Good day, 

I wanted to see if anyone else lout there is having the issue I am with my SO and my SK. My SO is a truck driver so he's gone for long periods of time which is first gonna put a strain on any relationship. He's also got an EX wife and two SD the oldest who's 17 isn't his by blood but he's been there since she was 1 yrs old. Then his daughter by his ex is 13 yrs old which the oldest knows she isn't his blood daughter. We have no kids together a yr into the relationship I had a misscarriage which happened a week after I found out I was pregnant. Anyway, because my SO is gone for so long when he does come home it's not for long periods its for maybe a day or two at most then he's gone again. So it's not often we all get to see him when they come over and when it does happen it's usually spent in front of a tv watching tv. I work full time myself as well and my hrs change weekly so every day I work different hrs which is fine since I'm alone 99% of the time. My issue is when he does have us all together he doesn't know how to divide his attention between the three of us. I'm usually just pushing for him to worry about the girls over me but at the same time I want attention too but don't wanna take time away from the girls as well. The best example I can give is we went to a dinner show and when we sat down I saw at the end the oldest SD next to me, then him and then the youngest SD. The whole time while sitting down the three of them had a blast while I sat there left out just eating my food and watching the show. In that two hrs he spoke to me twice once to ask me if I wanted a cup and then when they went to take a picture together. The rest of the show I didn't say another word to any of them I just got on my phone and started talking to some friends so I wouldn't feel so alone. I tryed to brush it off and say he's spending time with them but at the same time I want a little attention to rather then feeling like I'm a tag along. But that's how it is I know the kids come first but I want a little attention myself not all of it but some so I'm not alone cause outside going to work when I'm home I'm alone with; my cats. No friends no family to talk to or spend time with so most my days are lonely even though we talk on the phone almsot everyday.  What do I do because i'm falling apart at the seams in this relationship. I met him as a truck driver and for the most part that I don't mind but as the years go on I feel more lonely and getting wrapped up more in my own depression I had before this marriage. Any advice would be great cause I dont know where else to turn to.