It has been a while since I last posted but wanted to bounce some ideas around. As you can read by my previous blogs, I have disengaged from nasty skids and in-laws.
Here's the newest wrinkle: oldest SD had a baby last year. At the time her wonderous pregnancy was announced, I knew she would use the kid as a tool to further exclude me as "not family."
By the way, SD lives in Colorado, a legal medical marijuana state, and her job is working for a pot grower. She has only a high school education but thinks she's a genius. Her future is minimum-wage jobs and her hobby is pot.She and the child's father are not married. Why the hell is she having a child?
Anyway, the kid is going on two now and I have never seen him and plan to keep it that way. H saw the kid last fall. I'm a part-time college professor and work full time during the fall semester but have the spring semester off, so H has decided that every fall he will go see the SD and her kid. OK, fine.
But yesterday he announced he would be going to CO this fall to see "my grandson." And then proceeded to tell me that the kid was cute and looked like him.
This bugged me and, even though I hate to admit it, hurt me. After feeling hurt all day and thinking about things, I told H that I would prefer he keep this information to himself, that I don't want to hear about his g-kid or his D or his trip to CO -- that it is nothing but a big downer for me and it makes me dislike him for being a part of something that causes me emotional pain, for being a part of the "in group" that delights in excluding me. Go to f-ing CO, tell me when you will be going and for how long, but don't tell me about how great it all is.
Now, I have been accused a thousand times of being "too sensitive" -- so much so that sometimes I question if I really am too sensitive, Most of the time I know I'm not, but I thought I would ask all of you if you think I am being "too sensitive," heartless, or in any way unreasonable here by telling my H: Don't tell me about your goddamn g-kid, especially if you refer to it as "my grandson"!