My Christmas Wish
I love (well used to love) the Holidays, that has been long gone since blended life. You know that song..."where are you Christmas?"....that is me. I cry every time I hear it....
I put my tree up early this year and my house is beautifully decorated and illuminated but I feel nothing. I LOOOOVE to shop and it just feels like a chore going out and buying gifts. I want to find the Christmas joy but I can't. I spent 35 years of my life having amazing and wonderful Christmases full of memories and fun and warm fuzzy feelings.........and now here I am....scrooge.
This will be our 4th Christmas in our blended family (DD17,DD14,DD12, SD16,SD12 and shared baby 1. Maybe it is b/c the last 3 Christmases have been nothing but drama and stress and changed plans....and just misery.
My Christmas wish is that I celebrate Christmas with just my older 3 DD's and I , that DH could celebrate Christmas with just his 2 older DD's and him (and MIL of course), and then that DH and I could celebrate Christmas with just US and shared DD1.
I don't want to deal with all the drama anymore. My older DD's have such fond memories of Christmas.....until this blended mess..