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O/T - Missed interview call, stupid diabetic tricks, needles in both eyes and shredded man cards.

Rags's picture

DW made her grandmother's peanut butter balls for a office party yesterday. I had one in the evening. I entered a correction in my insulin pump, and... forgot to confirm the correction so it never dosed.  As we tucked in... I felt high BG and tested (my glocuse monitoring system provider jacked up my sensor order so I am perforating my fingers a dozen of so times a day).   I corrected and fell asleep.

Then about 4AM, I woke up feeling hypoglycemic.  So I got up, ate some carbs, and stayed active until I got sleepy and crawled back in bed. I stayed pretty low but not dangerously. One of my key career opportunity contacts called mid AM and ... I missed it. I am claiming what my brother labeled "Stupid Diabetic Tricks".

Fortunately they were understanding and we are doing a call tomorrow AM instead. I told him the truth, that I did not hear the phone. Though I did not mention that I was in a low blood sugar exausted sleep.

I had my quarterly Opthalmologist appt this afternoon. After 2yrs  of several LASER treatments, multiple injections, and quarterly exams, my Doc is now advising that since the hemhoraging has nearly stopped, surgery is more risky than staying the course. My eyes are healthy, the retinopathy gas mostly reversed due to stabilized blood glucose and agressive treatment. My vision has improved to 20:30 in my worst eye and though that is the eye with the film on part of the retina, I can see well enough to read, etc... Though reading is with walleye vision cheaters.  I have missed reading so being able to read again regularly is awesome.

But... "lets do the injections to keep things under control"  Sure Doc, I love it when you shove a needle in each of my eyeballs. Actually I  told her that I thought it would be a good idea even before she advised it.

The best news of the day other than my notably improved and stable eyeballs, my phone rang while I was in the exam chair waiting on the Doc.  It is my top career opportuntiy company that has the true Unicorn role that is exactly what I want to do at a level that I am looking forward to returning to.  They bumped me past two levels of interviews straight to the COO interview.  Either... Wed, Thurs, or Fri. TBD on which of those days  and at what time.  I am crossing my fingers that I get the offer.

We are down to one car because mine was stranded at my parents awaiting UAW strike delayed parts after the killer hailstorm the end of Sept. It was not ready when I had to fly home so DW and I could do our TG trip to visit her family in SpermLand.  We head to my parents on 12.22.2023 for 2wks with my clan. Everyone will be there. Mom, dad, me, DW, our son, brother, SIL, their three and their SOs.  This is the first gathering of everyone in about 7yrs.  It shoudl be run.

Coordinating her work commutes, my eyeball terrorist appointment, then her two appointments today was a challenge.  Particularly as I could not drive due to low BG then performated eyeballs.

Now... I am shredding man cards by the box full as we watch Hallmark Channel Christmas romance movies.

I need a job. I need my car.

Thats for tolerating my O/T blather.

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ESMOD's picture

Ahhh... that sounds not a lot of fun.  My FIL has to have those shots in his eyes.. and it does help.. but years of steroid use have wrecked his eyesight.. on top of glaucoma and his immune system is poor from it too.. 

Rumplestiltskin's picture

It sounds like you have handled your diabetes better than most. Where I live, most of the type 1's i see likely won't live to 40. Part of it is the low level of literacy here. The endocrinologists give them a complicated dosing schedule requiring first knowing how many carbs are in their meal, calculating a dose based on that, then adding a correction factor based on blood sugar, whoch requires math they either can't or won't do. It's a mess. 

Rags's picture

This week marks 43yrs since my Dx as a T-1.  Everything works, even my eyes though I have had some eyeball struggles over the past few years. I just started having issues with retinopathy about 3yrs ago.  I learned something. Though my control has been very good nearly the entire duration of my T-1 career. I have always attempted to manage to non diabetic BG levels. This has resulted in a tendency to have relatively frequent hypoglycemic episodes.  Which results in correction. The swings are what is the major contributor to retinal hemorrhaging.  

I went on a next gen pump and CGM two years ago and I have had nearly zero hypo episodes (unless my CGM supplier screws up the delivery and I have to manually correct).   My guess is that the greater stability has improved my bleeding issue.

I empathize with the T-1s in your area. To avoid the nightmare consequences of the disease it has to be lived nearly 24/7. There really is no break.  

When I was Dx'd my engineer dad made a BG tracking and plotting spreadsheet (manual) that I used for many years to test, log, and track (graph).  I learned the management of countless variables in this disease.

The lynchpin to managing BG effectively was the advent of low carb nutrician breakthroughs.  My first retinologist recommended it to me. I had a blood clot in my L eye. His wife was completing her PhD in Nutrician and used the book as one of her research references in her Discertation.

Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution, low carbohydrate diet, control blood sugars (diabetes-book.com)

I do not have any skin in the game on this book, but it is my go to for BG management, diabetes overview, and low carb life as a diabetic.   I have purchased nearly 100 copies over the years and I give them to people I meet who are newly Dx'd, or have a newly Dx'd kid, etc, etc, etc....  In a low income area there may be a charitable channel for getting copies.  I know you are in a low literacy area but having a number of copies on hand as a reference or to teach some community education sessions.

The biggest challenge, in my experience, is the changes that occur metabolically. Correction factors are not static. It takes near constant monitoriing of BG and a clear understanding of what foods impact BG. While the basics are commonly the same for everyone, the details are different for each diabetic.

For the fist time ever, I have an Endo who is a T-1.  This lady is a true Endo rockstar.

Anyway, I am fortunate in how my disease has worked out.  

Though not a low literacy area, I was Dx'd in the Middle East.  Pre personal BG tester days. I used a 10drop method urine glucose test kit with reagent tabs, etc....   When DW and I moved their for work 33-ish years later.... I ended in tehe hospital for  a spider bite that turned into cellulitis. A young Saudi female Endo came to my room to give me a diabetes management talk. She was shocked that I was 50+ had all my toes, my eyes were retinopathy free (this was nearly 10yrs ago), and that I had the level of knowledge I had. I was in the hospital for a week on IV antibiotics. She brought her young Interns in every day that entire week for Q&A on my management techniques, my history, etc... That I was Dx'd and spent my entire Christmas break from school in a hospital less than 5miles from the beautiful brand new state of the art facility I was in for the cellulitis kept my stay very busy.  

This disease is incessent.  As treatments and medical technology improves and more and more diabetics have children, we will see a higher frequency of the disease will just contiue to increase.

Tragically.

Though it was not a conscious decision for me until I was in my mid  to late d30s, I chose to not have kids in part so as to not pass this one to my kids.  My DW nearly lost her life while pregnant with SS-31 (toxemia/pre-eclampsia) and her lady bits Docs were adament that she not have more children.  We ended up not having any ours babies.  I was not willing to jeopardize her well being for a Rags spawn even before I chose to not risk propegating my disease to children.  Though she did upon occassion express interest in having more kids.

Rumplestiltskin's picture

I wish the pediatric endocrinologists around here would take a more individualized approach to managing T1. From what i've seen, motivation is the biggest factor, both motivation of the kids and motivation of the parents. If motivated, most people can be taught the traditional approach. I wish there were a simpler approach for those with low motivation or very low cognitive skills. I was over school health for the local district here for years. We had at least one kid in almost all our 100 plus schools with type 1. Some were in and out of the hospital almost monthly. We averaged one nurse per 5 schools. I was responsible for putting together a training program for unlicensed school staff to take over the nurse duties where a nurse wasn't available. The local endocrinologist came from a school system where a nurse was present in every school. His orders were complex. It became obvious that the parents were unable to follow the orders at home. Our unlicensed people and nurses did their best to manage the kids at school and teach them diabetes management. It was a daily struggle to keep these kids out of the hospital. 

Rags's picture

Sadly, the biggest challenge that  many a young T-1 has, is their parents.

"Just take more insulin"

"Here kid, have some candy and stop whining"

"But it isn' fair that the kid isn't having cake. A little bit won't hurt......."

My parentally induced T-1 challenge is my mom's kitchen wizardry and a very firmly set and unfortunately eroneous belief that a balanced diet has to have a heavy carb foundation (rice, corn, potatoes, bread, etc...).  She has fought with me that I need to eat a balanced diet since I first landed on low carb. Data does not sway her. I can show her  countless thousands of spreadsheet lines showing BG swings based on what I eat.  The only thing that has cracked her armor on this topic is my newest pump and CGM system that shows a graph in near real time. I can eat somethign she makes and swears has no verboten ingredients in it and .... I can know within a fairly short time if that is accurate. Not that mom is lying.  She just can't get it in her mind that "it only has a little bit of (don't eat that .... ingredient) in it."  So now, I just do not eat what my mom makes except for meat and green salads and clearly green veg with zero sauces.

Love my mom to death. But.... she fights the facts tooth and nail because she was raised to be a southern cook whose dishes move the soul and that can't be unhealthy because .... balanced diet.

A T-1 with a lazy or low capability parent can cause sever damage to that kid.  Combine that with the high carb nutrition characterstics that most cultures have, and the odds of a T-1 living a live without complications is just about zero.

Even for me, a person  who has had the best medical support, engaged parents, and a passion for managing the disease I am not completely devoid of some long term negative impacts of the disease. Mine are innocuous, i have no hair on my legs, I have chronic retinal bleeding.  Nothing that is indicating that I have done myself severe damage. The heart is good, ciculation is good, peripheral nerve function is good, though I do have some degredation in feeling of vibration in my feet (the tuning fork test).

It is a hard disease to live with. Even with all of the best tech, medical teams, family/mate support, and a solid knowledge of BG normalization.

I do not wish it on anyone or anyone's family. It is not a disease of an indivicual. It is a family disease even when only one person in the family has it.

Knowing what I/we know now and if by some fluke of fertility (I'll be 60 in two months, DW is 48), if we had a baby we would never allow sweets, or any form of high CHO foods in our home.  Even if the kid avoided my sweet genes.

Our son's HS GF was a infant onset T-1. Her candy consumption and her mother's incessent baking and poisoning her daughter with crap my son knew were a no-no drove him nuts.

 

grannyd's picture

Hey, Rags,

My DIL is a dietician, specializing in a ketogenic style of eating. In fact, she speaks at conferences throughout the U.S A. and Canada, summarising the advantages of a carbohydrate -free diet and its positive effects on diabetes, Obesity, Parkinson's Disease, Non-alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease and more.

During discussions with my DIL on the topic of ketogenic diets, she claims that insulin-dependent diabetics (type 1, usually presenting in childhood or early adolescence), are generally the patients most likely to follow the diet regiment. Greater level of maturity? Dunno…

 

Rags's picture

That makes sense to my engineeric brain. They are the ones with experience starting much nearer to day one of their memories. than is a person Dx'd at a much older age.  

T-2s or later onset age T-1s already have their eating habbits ingrained are extremely unlikely to do the right thing. Even those with the mental ability to know what the right thing is regarding their version of the disease.

Want and right are rarely the same thin in diabetic life.

T-1s Dx'd as children learn the disease as they learn life and everything else. When they eat a whole huge candy pile, etc...and end up with their head in a bucket they learn that when they eat carb they feel like crap.  When they easily see how great they feel when compliant to low carb Vs how they feel when they go to a friend's B-day and there is nothing to eat but pizza, cake, and standard soft drinks.

That your DIL has young onset T-1s who are engaged in their own health and actively managing their disease Vs suffering it is great.  I am glad that she has good experiences in her diabetes related patient group.  For many health care professionals focused on diabetes care of endocrinology that is a notably rarity.  

Because I am unusually knowledgeable and highly active in managing my disease and partnering with my Endo and care team my appointments always seem to be far longer than most where the Endo/etc deals with an unengaged and underknowledgeable patient or parent to a young patient.

Thank your DIL for me. 

Unmanaged the disease can be a nightmare, amputations of the extremeties, blindness, strokes, heart disease, ED (that even the little blue poll won't help), sexual complications with both men and women, extreme mood swings associated with precipitous BG swings,  significant increased risks of some cancers, extremely painful nerve degradation/neuropathy, and more...

The main cause is consistently elevated BG. Though evolving research is indicating that precipitous BG swings are nearly as causal of some issues as are consistently elevated BG.

When I see idiot parents shoveling crap foods down their kids throats (sweek breakfast cerials, pizza, fries, piles of pasta, pastries, and any vairant of the big 4 (Sugar (of any source), rice, corn, potatoes, wheat based products....) it is infuriating to me.  I also have a specific aversion to diabetic adults who scarf down coutless loads of high carb crap and play the "I just take more insulin" or "I see my GP and get a blood test once a quarter and my sugars are always fine".

Women with uncontroled diabetes  have nearly all of the same riskes that men with uncontroled diabetes and are also at massively increased risk of pregnancy related deat, complications for themselves and their unborn child, having extremely large babies at birth, etc........ 

 

grannyd's picture

Yo, my Ragged Friend,

I have forwarded your email to my DIL, the dietitian, and am awaiting her reply. Clearly, you are the Prince of T1 diabetecs, one of these few who actually observe the symptoms and behave accordingly. My DIL gets soooo frustrated with T1 sufferers who eat too much, gorge on high-carb shit food and drink indescriminately! Intelligent T1s, like you, are her stock in trade when she makes her presentations! As she insists, T1s are capable of leading a long and healthy life as long as they PAY ATTENTION!

I'd hate to think that salvation only belongs to engineers?!

Rags's picture

Lol. Hey, someone needs to keep "heaven" working.  Along with everything else.  Too bad elected office is not limited to engineers rather than politicians.

Preved

Rags's picture

I have mentioned Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution which is my go to guide and management resource for the disease and for Low Carb and why and how it all relates.

Dr. B is an engineer. He started his career in engineering, became a medical device company executive and quit his career to go to med school when he was 42.

He was Dx'd as a T-1 at 12yrs old.  He had many of the characteristics of a T-1 diagnosed in the very early years of insulin availability.  Stunted growth, etc....   He had followed the ADA dietary guidelines  (60% of caloric intake from carbs) to a T and had degraded nerve performance, retinopathy,etc...  As an adult he got frustrated with his BG instability so he went engineer on the problem. When the first "portable" BG testers came out (the size of a briefcase) he obtained one (his wife is a Doc and had to order it for him) and started a years long engineering study on his own BG. He would test, eat, test and document the response of his BG to foods. Carbs drove rapid and extreme elevation of BG. Protein and fat, did not.  

He attempted to publish his findings. He got no interest because he was not an MD or PhD.  So, he quit his job, went home, told his DW that he started med school in a few weeks.  Throughout med school he continued his self study of BG response to foods, insulin dosing regiments, assessed tBG testing frequency to determine effective data levels for managing his disease, etc....

The day he graduated he submitted his study too NEJoM, JAMA, etc...and poof. Published and lauded as the greatest breakthrough in diabetes treatment/management since the synthisizing of insulin in the 1920s.

He is now in his mid-ish 80's and has outlived just about anyone Dx'd as a T-1 in the late 40s/early 50s.

His entire practice has been Diabetes management.

I am a strong follower of his model. As an engineer, it makes sense and I have proved it on myself.  For 43 years.... this week.

Again, please give your DIL my thanks for her work.

Lillywy00's picture

My brother is a type 1 diabetic and didn't discover it until his late thirties. 
 

He f'd around and found out a couple of times when he didn't take care of himself - once he "gently" rear ended someone after he passed out at the wheel and a couple other times too. 
 

Also .... injections to the eyeballs .... I'm speechless!!!

Hallmark movies ... even the most hardcore man can't resist those once the movie gets going. I don't consider myself sentimental at all for a woman and I get sucked into those too. Influencer celebrity + decent story line (the more of a tearjerker the better) + holiday theme = locked in to Hallmark for 2 hours

Rags's picture

I hope your brother has his head in the right place in managing his disease. 

I suggest you buy him a copy of the book for Christmas.  

Dr. Bernstein's Diabetes Solution, low carbohydrate diet, control blood sugars (diabetes-book.com)

It is a treasure for understanding and managing this never ending disease.

Still Hallmarking this evening. I turn it on when DW gets home and we generally watch while eating dinner, tonight was an omelet dinner, and until we go to bed. We just started the third movie of the evening. 

Scratch one-s head

notsurehowtodeal's picture

So glad to hear about the job opportunity! I'm sure you are ready to go back to work. My husband will also watch Hallmark Christmas movies with me - he says he does it to make me happy, but I know he secretly likes some of them!

Rags's picture

What is this "secretly likes" hallmark movies? I know not of what you speak.

Unknw

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