At a Loss
I have been a step mom now for about 2 years to an 8 year old boy. I am currently 4 months pregnant with our first child together. Though I am super excited to be a mom to a little girl, the stress of being a step mom is constant and I feel like I am always angry and depressed.
My husband and I love each other and get along great, but the weeks we have my SS it seems like we argue all the time over parenting. A lot of it can be described as dramatic, petty things to get mad about (touching the walls and making finger prints after being told repeatedly to stop, not having the best manners at the dinner table, leaving his clothes on the floor, etc), but these are all things that I end up having to take care of and clean and he seems to just not care how many times I tell him. It is like he doesn't feel that he has to listen to me because I am not his BM.
My SO and his ex have a great relationship- she helps out where she can and vice versa- which is great considering most step parents have a horrible ex to deal with. She tries to tell my SS to listen and treat me as a parent, but I don't think it gets through to him. He is incredible smart, but sometimes not the most mature.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I am so excited to be having a baby (especially one that will call me mom) but I feel at a loss about my SS. The weeks we have him I don't feel like interacting with him and I just don't feel happy. I want to, I really do, but I don't know what to do to make that happen. To be honest, I don't feel like I love him like I should. Does anyone have this same feeling? Is there any advice you can give me?