My future....scary to think about it
It has been years since I've been on here as I felt I needed to step away. But now I feel that I have NO where to turn. My DH have been together for 7.5 years now and also now have a DS2 who is my world. I am a stay at home luckily. But I am too the point of disgust with my SS13 & SS9. I don't like them at my house, I prefer for them to not interact with my DS, I just enjoy life when they are not involved and when they come around, I am MISERABLE. It sounds horrible but its true!! I fell in love with DH years ago and I was excited about his kids and then they got more involved in my life and that excitement lessen to the point of just disgust and unhappiness. My son was born with some medical issues and my focus has always been on him. So I appreciate being a SAHM even more! Skids are in my son's face the entire time they are here and its a complete overstimulation. Both ask him for hugs/kisses literally every 5 mins to the point that my son tells them NO and pushes them away. We have told them to not ask so much and just let him do but they do what they want. SS13 thinks he is a parent and constantly repeating my direction to my son and it drives me up the wall. Sorry sweetie I need no help in being a parent!! I've discussed multiple times with my husband about this so I can be sane and he agrees then the next weekend we have them, its right back to square one!! UGH!!!!!!! To make matters worse, this all is really affecting our marriage. The time we have them, we both are SO unhappy, short tempered, and unaffectionate. I tried to talk to DH today and now we are not speaking to each other. I know he is offended that I need time away from skids but I have held that in for years and I'm sacrificing my happiness for him. We rarely fight about anything else but constantly fight when it has to do with things with skids. I feel so overwhelmed with these feelings. I truly believe skids will be the end of our marriage... 
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It's horrible but I HOPE they
It's horrible but I HOPE they decided at some point that they don't want to come here and I think things will be much better but I cant bank on that! Our weekends without them are so good but the weekends with them, I count down till Monday when they go home!
I've repeatedly told SS13
I've repeatedly told SS13 that he is not the parent and we are and that we need him to listen to us so please do not try to tell him what to do in a very nice way. But when it repeatedly has happened for 2.5 years, my patience is wearing! And it doesn't matter what it is. 'DS lets put your shoes on" and then he says 'DS put your shoes on with mama'. I get SO annoyed.
Yes I use to limit their TV and video game playing now Idc how much they play or watch bc it gets them away from my son so he can breathe! I feel bad but when my son is telling them NO, I react to that!
It upsets me that my marriage has suffered and DH had a few major talks about this in the past week and I honestly told him how I felt and told him that I fear what this could mean for our marriage but that I cant keep leaving like this. We will see what changes if anything. But I told him counseling is in our very near future!