OT- New job question
I know this is completely OT but I could really use some advice on what to do since I'm torn over this one. I just got a new job a few months ago at a fantastic company. I basically landed the interview thanks to my DH who has strong ties to many people at the company because he has been doing business with them for many many years. They all think very highly of him so that's why I got the interview. Of course my skills and 'charm' is what actually landed me the job. This job is at a higher position then I am use to. It has what I consider to be, the worlds best benefits and excellent pay. My boss is super easy going as are most of the other employees. So what's the problem ? Well, they offered me almost no training what so ever. They just handed me a manual on there computer system so I've had to literally look up everything to train myself which has completely hampered my productivity. I am more times then not , lost on what to do and / or how to do it. I ask questions and do whatever I can to get help but nobody can help me because this is a new position at the company so nobody has done it before or knows how to. It is in a field I have experience in so I do know the basics but there are so many loose ends. In addition to that I've been told that I'll have to arrange some large meeting and do presentations for them. This terrifies me as I hate speaking to large groups. I've been obsessively worrying about it and it hasn't even happened yet. I also have to drive all over the place for meeting and such. I was told there would be some travel involved but I seam to be doing it allot which I'm not keen on. I'm worried that since my job is an important one , that all these unanswered questions I have and loose ends are going to bite me one day if we get audited or something. Ultimately it is my responsibility to make sure it's done and done correctly regardless if anyone has an answer to my question or not. I don't want to fail the company , and I don't want to look bad bc of my DH's connections with the company. That said , my boss has said she thinks I'm doing great but I'm not sure if that means much as she doesn't really know my job. I have made some headway in things. I just don't know if it's too soon to leave or if I should stay longer ? I don't want to lead them down a wrong path with anything. I feel unsure of myself with some things and I worry about having to do things (like the speech ) that are just way out of my element. Should I just try to do it and 'grow' or if I stay will I become increasingly unhappy ? I really love the company and the benefits I will not find anywhere else. I should also add that financially I am able to go without this job. It's not ideal, but defiantly doable. Please advise- I'm torn.