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Im sick to my stomach...My Stb ex makes me sick...

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So he left to go out for the evening. and if you recall his phone was "broken" well he took his "broken" phone with him.....and something in my gut is telling me that he is up to NO good! Now please tell me why the hell would someone take their phone if it does NOT work...he actually walked out, and then walked back in to get the damn phone because he must have forgot it as he was walking out the door.....Guess his damn head is some place else.....It baffles me....He said nothing to me since I got home from work, as if Im the asshole, who called their ex and let me Bio child shit all over him...I know I shouldn't care,but I am fit to be tied and very upset. I did however move more stuff over to my families house tonight, so at least that was some sort of positive this evening....Im really hurt, and just dont understand why he is doing this to me. If you are seeing someone or want to leave then leave already god damn it! Make my life easier.....Thank you all again for all your support, I just needed to vent...

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WokeUpABug's picture

Even when the writing is on the wall, and you know you have to go, that kind of stuff still makes you crazy. As someone who's been there, I'm sorry. It does get better though.

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Dear wokeupabug,
Thank you so much for your kind words.Im so sorry to hear you have been threw this...Its just horrible.My..I do know I have to go..Im really trying to pull it together here, and end this...Im half way there....Thank you so much for your support!

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Dear Icansorelate,
Thank you so much. I know your right a million times over. I have to stop letting this bother me. I know he is not worth my anguish. I did take all of my and my sons valuables out over the last few days...I think getting him out before the weekend would be ideal. As I do not want his children here this weekend. Cant stand one more minute of my soon to be ex skids and their disrespectful and foul ways...Not to mention, the tension in this house would not make for a good visit...Plus where the hell would i sleep? I have been sleeping in the skids room, because I dont want to be near my stb ex fiance,,Thank you again for all your support....I just was so upset because once again I left to tend to the house while he plays "hubby with his ex" or who the hell knows now...

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He sure is considered my Ex already in my mind fortifiedwithwine, Thank you so much for your support. I will keep you all posted. I am just praying for no dramatics at my home this weekend. I almost wish the cell was in my name. but he had his own phone when I met him. He has the bill in his name, but I was paying the bill. Now I know the phone is totally off, the phone was due to shut off today and I didn't pay it. So I don't know how he is going to handle that. But where there is a will, there is a way. And lord knows if it was for himself or my Ex Skid's he would sure as shit FIGURE out how to pay that bill. Maybe he will ask his ex, maybe she has some $ still laying around from the last CS payment I made to her, LOL....Thank you again so much for all your support ..Hugs to you!!!!

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Tommar,
I have to agree, either the ex, and/or another. Someone is footing his gas bill to be driving, because it hasn't been me in over 6 days now...I haven't given him a red cent. So I don't know how in the world he is affording his "lifestyle"....

Aniki-Moderator's picture

Unfortunately, I think he keeps doing it because you've supported him for so long and he is taking horrible advantage of that. I'm so sorry you're going through this!! If it helps, make a list of aaaaall his bad habits/faults to show yourself exactly why it is GOOD for YOU to get this butthead out of your life. ~hugs~

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Thank you aniki,
I really think I will do that. Its been such a real eye opener to see what has been going on in my own life since I have posted on this board. I cant wait to see what I come up with when I write this all down. Its not just this, its the night mare with the skids too. Way more than I am willing to swallow at this point. I have been taken advantage of for sure, and I am very hurt. Thank you so much for all your support, Hugs to you!!

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misSTEP's picture

He wants to have his cake and eat it too. That is what he is doing right now...with his exwife and whomever else, while you foot the bill.

I don't know how you can ever make it until April.

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Dear misstep,
Thank you so very much for your support, I don't think I will make it until April either. Its time to call a spade a spade, and move forward. I cant wait to see his face when I tell him its over! I mean you would have to be pretty damn near next to dumb if he hasn't figured this out already...And the saddest thing is he has not one tried to make amends, on a true level. Its disgusting.
Thank you so much for all your support. It means so much to me. Hugs to you!

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You are all so very sweet and kind for all you support and inspirational words.....I do consider him to be an EX already. I haven't informed him but I think he GOT the idea, I haven't slept in the same bed with him in days. I don't know what time he arrived home last night as I didn't waste my time, or my heartache staying up and wondering. I know by 1130 when I finally let my mind settle that he was still not home.....I am dreading this weekend. But I know he will go off and do "his Hobbies" this evening. SO while he is out , I will continue to move items out. I pretty much have the bulk of stuff out, at least all of the important stuff is out.....
I cant move the furniture as of yet, LOL....I def wont make it until april....Thank you all so much...I will keep you all posted , Hugs to all...

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Dear Princessmofo,
Thank you so much for all your support, I am working diligently to get him out, and be done. He is toxic, and even more so are my soon to be EX-skid's , guess they learned from the master manipulator :sick: .....I will be placing a block on my phone today actually and I have called and left message for the leasing company to discuss my early termination of the lease. Hope that goes well.

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So I thought I would try and dial my stb ex's cell # to see if he indeed has his phone working...Well low and behold, the # is disconnected (as per the automated message and no longer in service). Hmmmm, now I know his cell was due to turn off due to not paying the bill, and lord knows I'm no longer ever paying it....But seriously, it sounds more like he changed his #. I have never heard that message before when the phone accidentally shut off....Not for nothing but he lives in my house, we are in a huge fight (which is the demise of this relationship, with the help of his nasty ass kids)
he doesn't think that letting me know he got a new # would be what normal couples do???. Well I guess you all have been so right. The writing is on the wall, He has not made any attempt to put this back together. He has not asked me to come back and sleep in our bed. He has not interacted with me, he has not spoken to me(except for a few pathetic apologies, and "get over it" bullshit) Other than that I have not seen him, or heard from him, and he leaves and goes out all evening shortly after I arrive home from work...Sometime I want to Smack my OWN self in the head. I know he's up to no good, I know his kids, and my stb ex skid's have abused me, and put me through more mental torture than any one should ever have to endure.
What the hell is wrong with me in getting my stomach all tied up in knots over this ASShole!
Its over , I need to get it in my head...And I can't....Sorry for the ranting, I just needed to vent that out. I hate having this horrible panicky feeling.

Aniki-Moderator's picture

It takes time to wrap your head around it. The important thing is to get yourself out of the situation so you can start healing.

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Thank you aniki, I am heading in the right direction. I think that's what I need, is Healing. Lord knows this hurts too much. Thank you so much for your support.....

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So an quick update, stb ex calls me , from his NEW phone! (whatttttt???) Says to me, changed #, got new phone, and I stood there dead in my tracks dumbfounded. Ah ha! My gut was right. He sure as shit did change #'s , But what gets me , is how did he pay his Bill and get a new phone???? and why The Fuck are you even bothering to call me?? we have not spoke in days, and you made no attemts to change the situation.......Well I hung up on him..., I said NOT One word.....I would not have even answered the phone if I knew it was him.......No need to have any useless conversation or to congratulate him that he found some sugar mamma/or his ex off my prior CS support payments to pay his bills.
Does he not have a brain in his skull? Does he not think? If I was on good terms with him wouldn't he say to himself, my fiancé might ask me how I paid to turn the phone on, and how did I get a new phone???? God forbid he cant get in touch with crazy ass BM or rancid skid's , oh god forbid, or god forbid he misses One second of FB...He never attempted to call me back, or text, so fuck him...I am so livid...When I arrive home I hope I am still this mad, because If I am, I am chucking his shit on the front lawn...he will be lucky if I don't set it on fire, and I might just key his precious fucking car too as I walk by it...I have never ever been this angry in my life...My head is spinning.....He makes me SICK!!!!!!DOUCHEBAG!

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I understand why you're so angry and I hope you're just venting and don't really do all the things you mentioned.
Yes, throw his crap out, No, don't damage any of it. If you really want to key his car, make sure there aren't any witnesses }:) but either way you'll be the #1 suspect.
You'll be creating more problems for yourself if you act on those and will end up having to pay him $$$ if he presses charges.
Hang in there IDK! You have all of us here to support you.