Still at my office
FH is....moody to put it nicely. Last night we were having a perfectly nice evening until BM texted and then like clockwork he started getting nasty - to me. I got up from bed where we were watching tv and went downstairs for the evening. I have been through this routine enough to know that it will only escalate and I am just not going there. This morning he apologized but when he then just HAD to call BM and rehash the issue they were texting about he again turned nasty and picked a fight.
I am so sick and tired of him turning his anger and frustration on me! He says it is because he feels "defensive" because I have said in the past that BM and the skids walk all over him and lets himself be emotionally blackmailed. Purportedly he is NOW turning over a new leaf but he feels that I do not believe him. Well, I don't! I watched him get treated lik shit for years and ask for more. Why would I believe now that all will change overnight without seeing some real change???? Besides, I don't know how I would even "signal" that I felt this way if I wanted to! Until something happens there is nothing to say "good job honey!" about. I tried saying that I am sure he will handle things well when they come up but that sounded stupid and condescending.
Anyway - I am still in my office at 7:15 on a Friday night and really don't feel like going home. I have a comfy chair, a tv and total privacy. I haven't heard from him all day which is unusual unless he is angry at me. Why the hell would I want to go home and deal with him and his misplaced anger and frustration?