So stepdaughter (9 years old) has basically "won". I no longer want to be in my own home any more. I avoid it like the plague. I go to work early. And I work out at the gym in the evenings so that I can not only releive stress, but get home late.

Being at home right now is sooooooo stressful. My evil little stepdaughter has made my life a living hell. She is constantly looking for ways to make me feel miserable. Last night, she purposely made me upset and then smiled a really big smile of joy when she saw that I was angry.

You guys might remember my headlice post from a couple of weeks ago. BM sent the kids to our house, they had headlice, she said she knew about it but didnt treat it. We treated it twice, just like the directions say. We are totally confident that they were gone when school let out.

I felt like a complete slacker yesterday for not having chosen and attached an avatar to my blogs.

So I chose the fortune teller. Why? Because I can predict, yes PREDICT, every move that SD will make even before she makes it. I can SEE the outcome of her decisions even before it comes to fruition. I KNOW what is swirling around in her head even before she says it. I can FEEL the negativity ooze from her pores. Yes, the fortune teller fits perfectly.

This morning Mr. Kate asked me if I was in a good mood today.

I said "Yeah, so far...don't screw it up."

I love my husband, but nights like this make me think that I'm really not cut out for this. DH and I have been trying to conceive for, well forever. Last night, because of something on television, he innocently began reminiscing about the child birthing experience with BM. I instantly started feeling cold and distant. He went on to describe her behavior, and warn me of how I would react to pain and medication and such, based upon her experience. I was flooded with so many awful feelings. Anger, pain, and humiliation to name a few.

If she's going to school, she will get good grades etc and just focus on that but... everything else falls by the wayside, kids included.

If she happens to have a job, she doesn't do anything else, misses appointments,everything falls by the wayside.

It's like she has a one track mind, DH said, she had a very difficult time multitasking, she just can't do it.

It's "one" thing at a time and nothing will matter to her but that one thing she's doing for the moment.

If you are 30, or older, you might think this is hilarious!

When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles to school every morning.... Uphill... Barefoot... BOTH ways yadda, yadda, yadda

And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it!

A Real Man

A real man is a woman's best friend.
He willnever stand her up and never let her down.
He will reassure her when she feels insecureand comfort her after a bad day.

He will inspire her to do things she neverthought she could do; to live without fearand forget regret.
He will enable her toexpress her deepest emotions and give in toher most intimate desires.
He will make sureshe always feels as though she's the most beautiful woman in the room and will enableher to be the most confident, sexy,seductive, and invincible.

I think this one even got SS14 thinking his mother's a douche! It's BM's month to have SS. DH picked him up Wednesday for our overnight and BM told SS to call her in the morning and she would pick him up from DH's workshop, even though we're supposed to have SS until 7PM the day after the overnight. SS calls BM from DH's cell as they were leaving the house in the AM. No answer, then SS called again when they got the to workshop, again no answer. SS continued to call 4-5 times throughout the day.

bleh sorry about this entry its so scattered right now. im so worried and out of it! so dh has been trying to get a job closer to sd with his old company for about a month now. they finally agreed to the terms his old boss set out and tomorrow he is finalizing paper work. its going to be about 120 miles away from me though just for two more years until i finish my degree program because they dont have it where he is located.