So BM gave FDH his box of adult toys that he had previously used on her. I was like WTF!! Does she actually think we would use those used toys. GROSS!! Another thing she tried giving him was their bed, we both laughed about that too..

So out of curiousity any weird stuff BM tried giving DH when they split?

I am still so angry at BM. It's been almost a week now and I haven't been able to shake it. Every time I think of last week, I get upset all over again. When I wrote my blog, I literally started it a few times - wrote it, and had to walk away from it because I was so pissed off. I even thought of more to add, and then got furious when I was driving! I have been in such a funk that it took me a lot of effort not to get pissy with SD while she was with her mom this weekend. And I wasn't successful. Poor kid - I was snappy and she just didn't understand why.

BM texted me saying "I dnt apprectate u telling Sd10 about the lunch $ that's none of your business"
so i txt back saying "If you have something to tell me, you can call me i'm not going to waste my time txting."
We just got off the phone. BM told me "Why did you tell my daughter that her dad shouldn't give her money" I said, "All i told Sd was that if she was not going to take the 5$ her dad was handing her than he shouldn't give her none that day."

So the annoying BM called my MIL to say she is on her way to pick up the clothes Skids came to my house with on Sunday. My MIL calls me to let me now that BM is on her way for the clothes, so i txted BM saying if i don't get the clothes Dh & i bought back she will be reciving nada! No txt back from her.

So I have classes monday and wednesday from 4 to 6:45. Every time i leave my other half get online and masturbates. He does this all the time when I leave. I am so feed up and don't know what to do. I have disconnected the router so he can not get online, but he has videos. I don't care but when I ask he gets pissed. Then lies and that is my problem with it. The lying. Why not tell the truth and try to hide it. Hello I am not stupid like you think. He leaves the mess on the floor and it leaves white rings. I keep telling him that I am not stupid but he denies doing it.

Has anyone ever asked for a stepchild to not be allowed in your house without their bio parent there?? Do you think that is unreasonable?? My step son has admitted to trying to break up my marriage and I don't want him over unless his father is home. I'm not sure how to go about this. Any suggestions???

Am I the one not looking forward to the holidays? I don't think I wanted to send out family photo Christmas card this year. SS19 moved in almost 3 weeks, it felt like months...

really.... thats all.........I just miss me.........sounds pathetic I know.... but dont know any other way to put it.

i know i should be a little nicer about this but i cant! skids were placed with us 5 weeks ago, and now bm is in rehab and has about 25 more days left. i am about at my wits end with the "ss"6. he has add/adhd and i know he has a problem that he cant help but i will not lie and say that he does not grate on my last nerve! some people say "what would you do if it was your own kid?" well then i would feel differently. im sorry but i would!

Among all the crazy things that gave happened to me in the past 9 months, i have gained 40+ pounds!!!! That's NOT a typo!!! I was 115-120 pounds now good god! What has happened to me?!?! I am sitting here looking at me unattractive figure (to me) fdh loves the breast and arse and I'm thinking...this is adding to my unhappiness!!!

Tomorrow I'm starting to walk (can't run I have a really bad knee) but at 8am...I'm walking as far as I can!!!

Life needs to change from the inside but also from the outside!!!