My sd is 5 and every since she was a baby her bm has encouraged her to say whatever she can come up with to get us in trouble. It went so bad that when she was 3 she accused my son who was 6 of rape. Of course through the police and dcfs it was unfounded and then the sd said same thing on her stepfather. The bm and grandmother encourage this girl to tell any story they come up with to dcfs and police to get whoever they want in trouble. We went from joint placement to joint custody with bm having primary placement. However we still have sd mons, wed, and every other wkend.

While surfing through the net, I managed to find the demons of depression... otherwise known as the disease which has been destroying my mind and my life. While I know I may be sounding rather wishy-washy about the topic, please believe me that it's taking every ounce of energy in me to fight away the pain so I can actually type without breaking down into tears.

The day of the week I hate the most.

The day that I spend the entire day hating myself and wanting to die.

It's the day the sd gets to go to the grandparents, and the DH has to go because he's being forced. We fight every time. Mostly because of the hatred I have for myself and the fact that I can't get rid of these horrible ideas out of my head.

I can't wait to leave NC, or at least move far away enough so we don't have to deal with these Friday ordeals.

BM moved 8+ hours away on Wednesday and never told my FH. She told the kids but not him. Then she told her daughter on the phone that she hadn't moved yet and either her or her "girlfriend" were going to pick the kids up on Friday (her normal scheduled day). She told her son that she had already moved. So as of right now, no one knows what she's doing...we're pretty positive she has moved.

OMG! a place to vent!
YAY! why didnt i think of this earlier!
well i am insane. i have completly lost the plot.

I have two boys 3 and 5 and my fiance has 3 boys, 7, 15 and 16.

they were all living with us however the 7 yr old has gone back to his mothers (thank god!)
i am having serious issues with EVERYTHING! i am feeling so overwhelmed with the whole blended family bizo. i dont know how to handle anything.

The past two days have been AMAZING!! Not sure what happened but since I posted last my house has felt like home, with everybody here!! Love it! My DH started a new shift at a new job overnight so he is here; just getting up when the skids gets home from school. He use to get home about 6-7 PM when kids are hungry and Mommys' going crazy cause shes had kids up her ass for 4 hrs. plus the 1 yr. old all day. Maybe thats been a big help. I actually got to relax and play around with the kids this evening! I have a date tomorrow eve with my SD for her Birthday.

So this past Sunday, DH sat me down to have a talk. He was tired of the fighting, and he wanted to figure things out. He wanted to know what he could do to make things right. We talked for awhile when I finally just said that I couldn't take it anymore. He had taken everything away from me in the last month. The one thing that I had always wanted - a family. He took that away from me. I told him a story - about when I had decided to give up a dream that I had had for so long for another dream.

So the FSkids got dropped off last night at a friend's house so the abode was peaceful. Today started ok - frozen, but ok.

Lazy boye was in the kitchen this evening, pestering me about using my computer, and just being a pain. being snowed in for 4 days will do that to a skid... I put him to work, emptying the dishwasher, and we were talking about him finishing up his laundry. Nothing major. He starts to rip into a bag of marshmallows, and I fuss on him not to eat them since they are for rice crispie treats tomorrow.

Loghead turns to me, and says "I must see you in the bedroom now!"

I'm like, "WTF?!"

Still bad enough that all of our schools are cancelled again tomorrow. I'm getting lots done- cleaned two closets; under a bed. One big bag of trash. 2 bags for Goodwill. Skyped with my momma, who's in Florida on business. Graded papers, helped Gibby with homework. Monopoly, yahtzee. 3 day into South Beach "detox" phase. Easy to do, when I can't get to the store and get my favs anyway...