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Submitted by sunny_skies on Tue, 05/03/2016 - 12:21pm

Sooo. I've been on a junk food kick this week. This is *very* unusual for me, I *never* eat things like chips and dip etc.

I don't want to get into *why* I've continued further down my downward spiral, but it is what it is. I'm thankful that I'm not into chocolate etc, I'm a carb monkey and always will be. At least I have that on my side Wink

I haven't actually weighed myself this week. I *know* I will have gained weight and I don't want to feel worse seeing it actual numbers on the scale, LOL!

I'm determined next week will be better though, I've got a secret plan (cue evil laugh) and I WILL SUCCEED IN TAKING OVER THE WORLD!!!

Oh, er.. I mean.. Lose weight. Yeh. I'll succeed in losing weight this week. Not the other thing. Yeh. *ahem*

Anyhooo, *whistles innocently* regardless of my mess up this week, and not being *that* great the last few weeks, I'm feeling positive about the days to come Smile So how's everyone else doing! Biggrin

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Tue, 05/03/2016 - 4:56pm

Ok I can't "do" numbers! Too! Many! Numbers! Aaah! I'm really confused and don't really understand what you just said, (fodmap?) but that you're sad about it. So here: (((Extra special Sunny hug)))

Jasper, can I ask. Worth what? What do you reckon is "it" In the whole "worth it" thing ..I know I deserve to be happy, I'm an awesome, awseome person Biggrin I just look a bit like a blimp on the *outside* while I'm being awesome on the *inside* lol!

Ok I feel I must explain about when I answered you, the last time you said I need to feel "worth it"

Sometimes I feel there are two me's. Slim Sunny, and Fat Sunny. I love and respect Slim Sunny a lot Biggrin She has sooo many nice clothes that she fits into! And can do so many things without getting out of breath. She also has so much confidence, and doesn't hide from cameras. I believe *Slim* Sunny is worth reaching again. 

But Fat Sunny, (not a big fan of her, but still, on the *inside* is awesome) is holding things up by eating chips! I'm not sure Fat Sunny is worth "it" but is striving to reach Slim Sunny, who *is* worth it.

Wow I just got really deep with that explanation there. lol! Do you kinda get what I mean? Any tips on how to merge the two Sunny's? ;P

Also, again, what do you consider to be the "it" in "worth it"? Xxx

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Wed, 05/04/2016 - 2:32pm

But Jasper, what you just said is pretty much what I said in this blog!

https://www.steptalk.org/node/228810
In that blog, I said:

"I do believe I deserve it. I deserve to feel comfortable in my own skin and right now it feels so tight and stretched I feel like a balloon  I deserve to be happy about the way I look. I deserve to feel confident and proud stepping outside with my handsome husband instead of hoping no one will see me. I deserve to fit into all my beautiful clothes again. I deserve it"

Is what you just wrote the way you feel about yourself right now? (Or maybe you were using me as an example, possibly read that wrong) If so, that's exactly what I'm striving for too. That 'Slim Sunny' is worth it.

What I explained further in my comment above was the wrestling match between the "two Sunnys" .. Doesn't the way I regard 'Slim Sunny' mean that I think I am think I'm worth it? Even 'Fat Sunny' is *awesome* on the inside. I'm just not comfortable with how she looks is all.

LOL the way I'm writing this, I feel like I have split personality disorder or something, but I can't think how to explain it any other way LOL!

I might be being dim and missing something? Gah! Sorry if I am! ;P

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Wed, 05/04/2016 - 3:01pm

Oh Jasper I'm so sorry if I'm still being dim. You said that you don't believe I think I'm worth it..

But what you just said is exactly how I feel too. It seems we are both working towards closing that divide between what's in the inside and the outside. Yes of course I *want* it, but I also *very strongly* believe I *deserve* it.

I'm not sure where you stand on feeling 'fat' like I do, so I will use the word 'unfit 'based on your last comment, (striving for fitness) and hope that doesn't offend you? :/

So are you basically having the same wrestling match with 'Unfit Jasper' wanting to reach 'Fit Jasper'?

If so, then yes, I do think we are on the same level with *believing* we deserve it. That we *both* believe we deserve to leave 'Unfit Jasper' and 'Fat Sunny' behind. 

I do think we're in the same place. And if *you* think you're worth it, then I believe *I* think I'm worth it too. Do you believe me? :/

Ps, Sweet Jasper, I so appreciate your thought provoking comments, and think very highly of you for making me think deeper about all this, I love delving into my own brain lol! You make me do that more often, Thankyou! x

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Tue, 05/03/2016 - 4:59pm

Hey that's great! Good job on your weight loss! Biggrin

And so glad to hear you're not feeling deprived of stuff, that's just the worst feeling ever x

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Wed, 05/04/2016 - 2:34pm

Soccermom!!! That is AWESOME! Biggrin You are doing so great! Halfway there?! Wooo! *shakes pompoms*

I am so impressed, and also a little jealous LOL! I'd *love* to be able to do any kind of exercise without losing breath LOL!

High five! Xxx

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Submitted by sunny_skies on Wed, 05/04/2016 - 2:36pm

Aw Mon! Sad Sending hugs and a warm comforting drink (Big Bang Theory fan over here)

In all seriousness though, I really hope things get less stressful for you (hugs) x