Some stuff seems small but then others seems big.
Hi everyone. I hate that it seems I’m complaining or venting constantly but I have no one else. So for that reason this forum counties to be invaluable for me.
ss13 stays here for the summer and it’s a burden. Not financially but things that I’m required to do, but I’ve done well with moving past it and settling in. For the most part.
We bought and live on a small farm. I have a 4 year old and 2 year old, “ours” kids.
We have all kinds of animals. Goats, chickens, ducks, cats, horses. I love it.
Our children help me take care of them. It’s a blessing.
My issue is that everything that me and our kids do that is new- kids riding horses with me, us holding goats, kids doing farm work. It’s never documented unless I ask. My hubs has no “time to do pic or video” button to record these things.
But, interestingly when SS does anything around here, like picks up a pitch fork or gets a pony ride from me the phone is out recording every moment. Like everything that he does which is mostly nothing outside of video games is recorded but our kids get no air time.
Clearly this hurts me for obvious reasons but mostly because I have to ask for my recordings of my fun stuff with out little ones and stuff I love teaching my children, but SS gets all the attention and photos and videos.
Im kinda done now. I continue to withdraw and I probably won’t return until He goes home at the end of the summer.
Im not sure what I’m asking for. Maybe just support or to know I’m not alone. All I know is that I don’t feel like me and the burden feels heavy, which isn’t normal for me. Typically I feel light and happy. It’s going to be a long 8 weeks.
thanks for reading. I truly appreciate even being able to type this out. It helps.