I'm becoming unhinged lol
Hi! I posted a little while ago we decided to postpone our wedding.
If you didn't see my other post- long story short.
Engaged to a man with a 12 year old daughter, haven't met her, she's not been in his life in about 7 years and he didn't live in the same city as the daughter or BM- now he does. He told me before he wasn't going to make a big deal of things and fight with the BM and go to court etc- he said he didn't want to disrupt his daughters life. Well forgot that.... he slipped in conversation earlier today talking about taking his ex to court so he can see his daughter. One of the prerequisites of me being involved in this relationship was that there not be any messy court custody dramas with his ex. I have no kids.
I wasn't sure how things would go, so I broke things off, then we decided to just postpone the wedding ( well I decided to)
Anyway- I've become increasingly unhinged everytime he brings up the daughter or the ex- we just had a conversation on the phone and he accidentally called his sister by the BM name in our conversation- I became unglued and said that it's gross, unattractive and a turn off whenever he talks about his ex- then I ended the call. Lol
I guess I don't even know why I'm writing this- I'm just not sure I can continue with this, and Im sure it sucks for him dealing with me becoming increasingly crazy.
Ugh- The thing is that the kid, the BM and the custody drama turns me off so much, that I'm starting to fall out of love with him- and I wouldn't be surprised if my attitude is slowly making him fall out of love with me. I'm pretty sure this isn't going to work out in the long run- I have a feeling it'll be a long drawn out thing. I think I should just step back and back off even more than I am and maybe take steps to get used to the thought of living my life without him in it.