I am an awful stepmum
I just find it so hard sometimes. We are a family of 6. I have 2 step-daughters and sometimes they can be a nightmare. When they haven't been nice or their behaviour hasn't been very good I find it so hard to come back from it mentally. With my own kids I can easily talk with them about what I expect and how we behave nicely and can resolve things with chats and love.
I find it so hard to express my feelings to my partners girls and like now where I'm angry with them for their recent behaviour I don't know how to make it better. I'm just so cross I don't even want to be around them.
The teenage girl (13) had her friend over at the weekend and she was a complete nightmare, she wasn't very nice to her friend she upset the whole house, Dad was grumpy and the whole weekend was just awful. The other (10) picks on my eldest who is a year and a half younger than her. She bosses her around, blocks her in rooms, takes things off her and won't give them back. They can get on but I'm always on edge wondering if she's being nice to my daughter.
I find it so hard to forgive.