BM has Dropped a Bombshell!!!!
I haven't posted much but I'm sooo angry I need to vent.
BM has decided to live overseas for a year to "find herself". SS is staying here And she basically said to DH "You guys will need to organise what to do with him as I'm going to be busy packing."
Never mind the fact we both have jobs and we have a son of our own that I look after. She expects us to pick up the slack from her shitty parenting and basically raise her child that is so disobedient a dog listens more.
I am so filled with rage right now. As a mother I can't belive someone would do that to their child. I hate being a part from our son when I'm at work and can't wait to see him yet here she is leaving the country for her own selfish needs!
Sometimes I just don't understand what I was thinking getting into this relationship. I can deal with SS EOWE but not everyday. I know this sounds bad but I don't want our son growing up with such a misbehaved child. I don't want to be a stepmother to him. I know it will be expected that I will need to change my whole routine and make sure I am there to take him to school and all that and I just don't want to. I just don't have any feelings for this child. I have tried my heart out to find something to connect with him but nothing ever happens.
I want to leave but that will just make me as bad has her, leaving a helpless child. I wish I could just changed feelings or find something to bond with him about but there is nothing. I feel like my whole world is going to turn upside down because of this poor excuse of a mother.