I don't want my stepson around.
My partner and I have been together since his son was six months old... he's four years old now. There was no relationship between my partner and the biomom, just friends who did it one night and she got pregnant.
My partner is a wonderful loving man who's always been a responsible and enthusiastic father. He pays his child support and is consistent in being there when he say he's going to be there. We have his son almost every other week for three nights. We'd probably have him more if it wasn't for my partner's work schedule. He works out of town and flys home every 14 days for a week.
I'm finding that I prefer the time his son is not with us and that I can't wait for him to go home to his mom. He's always been a sweet little boy. Everyone who meets him thinks he's a well mannered, kind little boy. He is. I really don't have much patience for him especially when he gets whiny. Children are demanding in general. Bottomline is that I don't accept him. I keep wishing it was just me and my partner. But that's not reality.
It's really creating a wall between my partner and I. I feel trapped... yet I have a loving family who just wants my love.
I came from a blended family. By the time I was living with stepmom #2, I was 12. She had her own son who was 9 years young and I never really felt apart of the family. Her son was treated so much more favorably than I was.
It's funny being in a stepparent situation... seeing it from the other side. I feel angry alot.
Life can either make you bitter or better. I'd really like to be better vs. bitter.